Inside Youtube- A Krinx Fanfiction

Chapter 15- Minx

April 19th 2013

But if I fall for you, I'll never recover

If I fall for you, I'll never be the same

I really wanna love somebody

I really wanna dance the night away

I know we're only half way there

But you can take me all the way, if you take me all the way

I really wanna touch somebody

I think about you every single day

I know we're only half way there

But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way

It seemed like I was outside for hours, just sobbing. Everything was unfair, everything was over, and everything would be different now. What Mary said...just mentioning her brought back unwanted memories. I was having flashbacks to that day a few weeks ago, to what happened. It was all flying through my head in fragments. Going to her house, seeing everything, our fight. I couldn't stop it. The tears flowed down my face as I processed everything again. I did my best to block it out, I really tried. But now, everything was coming back. And I didn't know what to do. The worst part was Krism was probably done with me. Who would want to be friend with just a stupid gay loser like me? Forget dating, there wouldn't even be a friendship now.

I'd lost too many friends to homophobia, and this would probably be the end of us. I sighed, running a hand through my hair. I knew this wasn't permanent. I should be thankful I got to have a few weeks with her. I should be thankful for everything, and let it all go. I looked at my phone. I'd been out here for thirty minutes already. I needed to realize that she wasn't coming, she wasn't going to be my savior this time. She was gone from my life, ripped away like a bandage. I should be glad though, that it was quick and not slow and painful. Then again, I would've relished every second of that pain.

I laughed to myself. "Maybe I am crazy..." I sighed. Suddenly a cool hand touched my shoulder. I jerked up, not turning around. "If you want me to go inside that's not happening." The person laughed quietly. "You going inside doesn't really concern me." I gasped quietly. It was that voice I knew oh so well by now. It was Krism. She came for me. I turned around, taking her in. It looked like she had been crying as well, she looked like a wreck. Her makeup was smeared a bit, and her hair was tied up in a half-attempt at a ponytail. Her eyes glittered with nervousness and pain.

"Um...Minx can I talk to you?" I shrugged. "What does it matter? You're here anyway." She sighed, sitting beside me, a little closer than I would have expected. She stayed silent, picking at her thumbnail. I sat up. "Look just get it over with. I'm sure my so-called friends told you everything. I'd rather you get over with what you have to say and then leave me to rot here." Krism sat up.

"I'm composing my thoughts, this is a lot to take in. Let me think about how I'm going to say this." I tried to talk but Krism held up a hand. "Shut up! I'm thinking." It looked like she was going back to thinking, but she sat up, staring at me. "Look, I know this is sudden and all but we need to talk about this and I have to talk to you anyway and yeah I need to get it out now so I'll try to keep it short-"I cut her off. "Maybe don't word vomit, now, what do you want to say?"

Krism sighed. "Well first of all I want to hear your sexual preference from you, please elaborate." I sighed. "I'm a lesbian, yeah. Um... I like girls. I have since I was a young adult. What else is there to say?" Krism gestured. "You have a girlfriend? That's what Mary said." She must have seen the hurt on my face because she stopped me. "Never mind, we'll save that for later. Anyway, I have something to say. Listen Minx, I feel a connection to you. We've only known each other for what, a few weeks? But you feel different than everyone else. When I ran into you that day I felt something. I just don't know what to do about it. You're just so talented and amazing and well... I knew I had to get to know you. We're great friends." I let a single tear roll down my cheek. Here it was, shot down once again. But, to my surprise, Krism wiped the tear away with the index finger.