The Only Hope for Me is You

I'm Not in Love, This is Not Your Song

Then he disappeared into the rush of people. And for the second

time that week, I found myself stranded by Gerard Way. He's not going to win this bet. I am not going to fall for— my phone buzzed and I looked down to read the text, it was from Gerard:

 

Hey sugar.

Just making sure I've got the right #

Had a great time

-g

 

I sighed and tucked my phone in my purse. I was not going to let

myself fall for Gerard Way.

—— 

            I could hardly believe it had been a few months since I met Gerard, it had gone by so quickly. We had started to hang out more and more often and now we're hardly ever apart. Him and the band are in town while they're working on their new album and thus we've fallen into a rhythm. He meets me after work and we'll go to my apartment, or the studio, or the apartment he shares with the guys, hang out until dark, and take the late train home. I always thought I'd get tired after seeing someone so often, but I love it. I loved being around Gerard. And I loved the guys too.

Gerard had introduced me to them a week or two after we met. There was Mikey, Gerard's brother who didn't really say much but was hilarious when he did. Ray, who was a huge sweetheart and we tended to hang out quite a lot and have life chats and he'd give me advice and all that. And Frank, who was Gerard's best friend and a complete ball of energy. But for some reason, I got the feeling he didn't like me too much. But I'm working on that.

I had just gotten off of work and I was picking up a few necessities—coffee, sour patch kids, bagels, chips, more coffee and a few other things—before heading over to the studio to hear the band's progress.  They had a few new songs in the works and Gerard has been dying to show them to me. I hopped off the train and walked the cold, icy few blocks to the studio. I couldn't wait to hear what they had been working on. Although I hadn't even heard of them before the concert, after some stalking I fell in love with their music (I may be bias since I'm in with the band but I'll never tell the guys that).

 I opened the door to the studio and made my way down the twisted stairs to the basement lounge. It was a well-decorated place. The walls were a deep red; there was a low black leather couch against one wall with a glass coffee table in front of it. On the back wall were ceiling-high bookcases filled with CDs and records, some old, some new, and some notebooks for song writing. The wall opposite of that was a half kitchen with a fridge, microwave, a few cupboards.

"Hey."

I jumped. I had been so preoccupied with my thoughts I hadn't noticed Frank sitting on the couch, reading a magazine.

"Frank, you scared me"

"Sorry Ava. Wasn't the intention, but that doesn't mean I'm complaining."

I did my best not to make a face at him. Had it been anyone else, I wouldn't be offended. But with Frank, there was always an underlying intentional rudeness to his comments. Or at least his comments involving me. I turned towards the kitchen.

"So don't take this the wrong way or anything, but why are you here?"  he questioned in a tone that made it seem like the 'wrong way' was the exact way he meant for me to take it. I harshly shoved the groceries into the cupboards.

"Because Frank, Gerard invited me. And whether you like or not, Gerard and I are friends, and I'm going to be around a lot."

"Ah." He picked up a bag of chips, "friends".

I kept shoving groceries away. Frank was getting on my last nerve.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I ask furiously.

Frank just raised an eyebrow and went back to the couch just as Gerard, Mikey and Ray walked in.

"Wassup everybody? Ready to record some musica?" Ray sung as he danced into the room. He was always a ray of sunshine, I couldn't help but smile. Gerard walked over to me and gave me a nudge on the shoulder.

"How ya doing beautiful?" I let out the breath that I hadn't realized I had been holding and gave Gerard a weak smile. He looked concerned.

"Hey" he stepped in front of me and put both hands on my shoulder so I had no choice but to look him in the eyes, "you're okay. Okay? Do you want to talk about it?"  I shook my head and He resorted to pulling me in for a hug and then stepped back.

"Lets go make some music shall we?" he offered his hand which I took and we went back to the studio.

—-

I took a seat in a chair in a far corner while behind the glass the

guys all made their way to their instruments. Ray took the mic from Gerard's hands.

"Get ready to have your mind blown"  I laughed and Gerard pulled

the mic back.

"Well this is all we have so far but..." he trailed off and they began. 

"Where, where will we stand, when all the lights go out across these city streets? Where were you when all of the embers fell? I still remember them, Covered in ash, Covered in glass, Covered in all my friends, I still think of the bombs they built, If there's a place I could be, Then I'd be another memory, Can I be the only hope for you? Because you're the only hope for me, And if we can't find where we belong, We'll have to make it on our own, Face all the pain and take it on, Because the only hope for me is you"

Gerard held onto the chord and let the mic fall and swing by his

hips. No one was making a move and the silence was uncomfortable so I got up and made my way to the recording part of the studio.

"What did you think?" Gerard asked

"I loved it" I replied honestly. Frank rolled his eyes behind Gerard and set down his guitar.

"Gerard I don't think she gets it. Please put me out of my misery and just tell her"

Gerard looked down at his feet and shifted his weight awkwardly. I hadn't seen this side of Gerard in a while.

"Will someone please tell me what's going on?" I questioned

uncomfortably, not going to lie it was starting to freak me out. Finally, Gerard stepped forward blushing.

"Ava, the song...the song is about you. Because I—over these past few months I—"

Everything suddenly clicked into place the song, Gerard, Frank's comment earlier.

"Oh. Whoa. So you, are you, I mean actually?"

"Yes actually you loser" he laughed then took a deep breath, "Ava will you be my girlfriend?"

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hey guys! so i know it has been a horribly long time since i've update and im terribly sorry there's just been a lot going on. But I have this and I'm almost done with the next chapter so there will probably be quite a few updates coming up. Thanks for reading! <3 

title credit to the academy is...- about a girl