Destiny Lashae
Sitting in the small bathroom at my Aunts place I waited anxiously for the 3 minute timer to go off.
Finally hearing it go off I lifted by body from the edge of the tub to look down at the three tests that sat along the sink.
Positive
All three test read positive bringing tears that i refused to let fall to my eyes. One night and now my life would never be the same.
Choosing to live in delusion I grabbed all three test and threw them in a bag walking outside of my aunts home to the dumpster.
Making my way back into the house I chose to listen to music to ease my nerves but nothing helped.
Here I was 19 and pregnant. All my life I fought to never be another statistic and yet here I was.
During the midst of Roe vs Wade pregnant. I couldn't stop thinking about how my life would go down hill from here.
A college teen that would have to drop out and find a job in her hometown pregnant by a man she never was in a relationship with.
And that's when it hit me. I didn't know this man a one night stand just turned into a life long commitment that neither of us intended to happen.
How could I let this happen? I wasn't drunk enough to blame it on the liquor and I was too mature to blame it on someone else.
I chose to drive to his house and continue to have sex with him knowing he didn't have a condom. This was all my fault and now I would be a single mother everything I told myself I would never be.