Black alpha

(8)

Four months later.

I threw a orb at Thor "come on" he yelled and threw the hammer at me "that that best you can do?" he yelled again "fine" I let the mist take over me and I was gone when it faded only my black orbs of magic where seen when I threw them at Thor.

I walked behind him "you asked" I whispered in his ear and then kicked in his knees and got on his back, still invisible "fine I surrender" he struggled to say. I got off his back but didn't drop my magic.

He stood up and straight away went to swing at me but he couldn't see me. I formed a orb and waited on throwing it at him, if I cook then long enough in my hands then they hurt more when I throw them. Once I felt like it was at the right strength I threw the orb at Thor and in a wave of black magic he fell on the floor.

I dropped my magic "good job, you remembered" Thor said "oh course I did" shock my head and gave him my hand pulling him up "your getting better, Stark has been thinking of taking you on our next mission" he handed me my water bottle.

I looked up at him confused "the man that calls me his adoptive daughter wants me out in the field?" I asked taking a drink "yes I thought it weird to but he wants to make sure your ready and your ready" he gave me a thumbs up "thank, I'll meet you back here tomorrow" I walked with him out the training room.

We chatted until he for to the elevator "bye Thor"
I waved as the doors closed, then I teleported to my room getting ready to shower.

I got in the shower and my muscles hurt the warm water was helping calm them.

*knock knock*

Of course someone must have sense I was relaxing "I'm in the shower come back later!!" I yelled at the door then heard it open "hello?, I said I'm in the shower" I yelled pulling the curtain back enough for my head to be out "Loki, I said I was in the shower" I roped my eyes "and?, nothing i haven't seen before" he shrugged and sat on my bed.

I finished washing my hair and got out the shower wrapped a towel around myself and walked out to Loki "remembered that party tony was throwing but the team got called on a mission for a long time before so it never happened we'll be just announced that he's doing it, tonight" Loki said grabbing my thighs "really?" I groaned.

Loki laughed and nodded "I just had a very hard training session and he wants me to get all prettied up" I hugged Lokis head and his arms hugged my waist "I know, darling" we stayed like that for a while.

"Thor said Tony's thinking about putting me in the field" I told Loki, he looked up "the man they we had the sneak around for two months because he banned us, wants to put you in the field?" He smirked "yep, I said the same thing to Thor" I laughed kissing his forehead.

I walked off to my wardrobe and walked in "so did he give you a time?" I asked picking out a long sleeve shirt a cropped one and a pair of leggings "yeah, he said he wants us down by nine" I changed with help of magic "really, he knows I don't stay up and party" I yelled back "hey, it's not my fault" he said in defence.

I came out in my clothes and stood next to him "yeah I know" I hugged him "you ok, love?" He asked kissing my hair "yeah" it's not really.

Today is the day I would normally have my dosage of whatever they where feeing into me, without it my powers are not leaving or loosing energy because I've gone five years without it, the powers are just apart of me now and they knew this so why did they still inject me with it.

I know it's makes me fast, and keeps me young and gives me strength along with my powers, but what else was is doing.

I try not to think of it, Winters who I found out his name is really Bucky not winter but I still call him winter, he's ok he told me about a therapist that's helping him work through things and his friendship with Steve has rekindled.

Loki and I are in each others pockets all the time and surprisingly we don't get sick of each other, he's my safety net.

I wanted to hug him forever, but the knock on the door was perfect timing. I let go of Loki and opens the door "hey kiddo" tony smiled "I'm coming to let you know about that party they got delayed Is happen tonight" he looked over my shoulder "lover boy is coming too, pepper is downstairs and she's taking you shopping and before I you tell me no, you have no choice" before I could even process what he said he was out the door and done the hallway to the elevator.

I turned around and looked at Loki, he had a smug look on his face "he hates me being in here" he stood up and walked over to me "yeah well, I don't" I leaned up and kissed him.

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Natasha threw three dresses at me "these are going to look great" Wanda said helping Natasha pick them out "Nat this is a lot" I said holding the dresses "go try them on and then come out and we'll pick" she pointed at her and Wanda. I rolled my eyes, groaned and walked to the change rooms.

Pepper came running "this will look good, try it on first I'm sure you'll love it" she handed me a shirt and pants "thanks" she knows I proffer pants over dresses.

A mint green cropped blouse, tight around my chest and then flowey arms, light grey ripped jeans I really liked it "this is the one, not trying on anything else" I said unlocking the door "yep that's it" pepper clapped "looks great Alex" Nat fist bumped me "amazing, our turn" Wanda smiled and walked off.

Pepper and I got to the counter "what's wrong" she asked when we were alone "what do you mean?" I asked hoping no one noticed my off mood "your.. different today, like somethings bugging you" she said placing a hand on my arm "if you need to talk I promise I'm always here, and I won't tell Tony" she laughed.

I sighed "today is the day they would inject me with something, I never knew what it was but they said it was good for me, I know my powers aren't going to disappear because I've gone five years without it once and they never changed, I just want to know what it was and why it needed to be ok the same date" I said making sure no one heard "was it a blocking thing maybe" she shrugged.

I asked her to elaborate "well you said they never ripped your reproductive organs out but you can't have kids maybe that's got something to do with it, or maybe it was to keep you under their control" she explained "well what happens if I do... something... and I'm out of the dosage will I get pregnant?" I needed to have this talk with Loki "well I didn't make it so I wouldn't know but if that's what it's for then I guess so" she shrugged and we got to the counter.

In truth, I don't even know how to get pregnant, I understand that you need to have sex but I don't get what part of it makes the baby, I never got told because I was never meant to be able to have children but after what pepper said I'm a little scared. And I can't ask because that's stupid.

This whole thing is getting complicated, I'm more thankful then ever I'm living in a stable home with a semi family but it's complicated.