TO YOU, FROM ME || ATEEZ

re-◛: seven

dear chung yuna,

today, i heard a song play on my phone as i was writing this letter to you:

"thankful for every moment by my side,

for always being there.

i know that even the moment I'm tired on a rough day

you made me smile.

this love you showed me to wake up

always."

- the letter

everything about this song screams about you.

the title, the lyrics, the tune... it reminds me of you. it makes me so happy to think that the girl who has my heart has been there for me, has been watching over me all this time without me knowing. 

it's amazing, really.

to think that for three years, you have kept me in your mind despite all that you went through. 

and that's the same for me. 

all these years, i've kept you with me in my memory, and i've always asked about you whenever i would call yeosang. yeosang, for the longest time, knew about my feelings for you but did not say a word about it. he knew that even if he told you, it wouldn't change anything during that time. 

he didn't know about your feelings because you were so good at hiding everything to yourself, and if we were to pursue one... we would be long distance, high schoolers straining a relationship that may not stretch far enough for both to reach the ends. 

to be honest, i almost forgot about you. i tried to take my time moving on, meeting new people, distracting myself...

yet you always mangaed to come back to my mind.

and to read your letters from start to finish, i want to say...

i'm sorry.

i apologize for the pain that i have caused you, i never intended hurt you in any way possible. that was the last thing i wanted to do to you. i wish i was there to comfort you, to hold you in my arms, to whisper nothing but sweet words in your ears...

yet i was a coward.

i could have asked yeosang for your contact information, or had the courage to follow you on social media, or stood my ground when my parents decided to move but...

i was a coward.

never once have you left my mind, and i didn't know what i would do if i saw you again.

i didn't know if you moved on to someone new, or forgotten about me, or pretend i never existed, or act as if nothing happened. i didn't want to deal with any of those possibilities.

i didn't want to confront my fears.

the past years without you were like a turbulence, unsteady and rocky.

now, it's gotten a little more relaxed...

and i'm going to own up to my mistakes and take my chances this very moment.

hi, im jung wooyoung.

here's my phone number: xxx-xxx-xxxx

let's catch up sometime.

maybe the dream you had in high school...

can come true now.

with lots of love,

j. wy