Should've Said No // Jaime Lannister (0.5)

8. Mine right now

Weddings were so romantic. Taeylor looked around and couldn't help but think that this would be her and Jaime soon.

"This is nice, I think the music could be better." Taeylor remarked softly as she danced with Jaime but his focus was on Cersei still. "When we get back to Casterly rock... this could be us." Taeylor reminded him. Jaime finally looked down at her.

"Right." He said distantly. "Excuse me." He kissed her forehead quickly before walking off a small pout formed on her face as she watched him go.

"Can I have this dance?" Tywin asked and Taeylor's smile reappeared.

"Of course." Taeylor agreed. "You are a lovely dancer uncle Tywin." Taeylor remarked.

"Thank you my dear... are you alright?" Tywin questioned.

"Oh yes... I just, well I keep trying to talk to Jaime but he seems very distracted. " Taeylor remarked.

"I wouldn't worry about it," Tywin assured. "You are a beautiful and talented young lady. Jaime would be crazy not to fall in love with you my Taeylor."

"Thank you Uncle Tywin." Taeylor said leaning into him.

"You look happy." Jaime remarked. Cersei forced a smile. "Robert looks drunk." Cersei looked to her brand new husband as he drank away his night, what should have been the happiest moment of both their lives was turning out to be a nightmare. Cersei kept a smile on her face, she was the queen after all and Robert had just fought in a war but something felt off.

"You look more miserable than me." Cersei remarked softly. "Not happy with Taeylor?"

"She is sweet." Jaime told cersei his lips grazing her ear. "But she will never be you." Cersei looked up at him and a smile pulled at her lips as a blush covered her cheeks.

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"Does everyone need a bedding ceremony?" Taeylor questioned as Robert staggered away a burp on his tongue as they headed off.

"No, but the royal family and the council do." Tywin told her as she licked the frosting from her lips.

"I wouldn't need to right?" Taeylor asked hopefully.

"No my dear." Tywin assured.

"You think Cersei is happy?" Taeylor asked as she looked for Jaime yet again but he was no where in sight.

"I think she has wanted to live in a castle and marry a prince or king since the moment she knew what royalty was." Tywin agreed. "I think she will love it here."

"That's good." Taeylor agreed.

Robert was drunk and stumbling, fumbling with his pants, Cersei was so excited but he pushed her back pushed up her dress and she could smell the strong stench of ale on his breath as he panted on top of her. Cersei bit back the pain of it all as he moaned out.

"Lyanna."

Cersei couldn't breathe, she was a living, breathing girl and Lyanna was a bloody corpse and yet he still pined for her. Cersei felt the tears welling her in eyes as she was always going to be the other girl in Robert's eyes. The pain of him forcing himself into her, the pain of never being Lyanna, the woman he truly coveted. The pain that she was going to be in a loveless marriage, a loveless life for the rest of her life.

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"Jaime, talk to Taeylor." Tywin demanded.

"I want to check on Cersei." Jaime countered.

"Cersei is wed and you need to talk to your bride to be." Tywin reminded him. "Now." Jaime nodded but he didn't head to find Taeylor before they left for Casterly rock he went to find Cersei.

"Your grace?" Jaime asked and Cersei opened the door in tears.

"I hate him Jaime, I hate him he is never going to love me." Cersei whimpered.

"You don't need him." Jaime offered bringing his hands up to cup her cheeks. Wiping at the tears.

"He is the king I am the queen and he still wants and craves Lyanna Stark I can't compete with a corpse and you are going back home to marry Taeylor.' Cersei hissed. "I am going to be all alone here." She declared.

"I could stay." Jaime suggested.

"What?"

"I could be on the kings guard." Jaime offered. "I could keep you safe. Love you right..."

"Jaime..."

"I don't mind if we don't get to forever, because you are mine right now." Jaime told Cersei bringing his lips to hers as he kicked the door closed.