Dear AL, it's been 3 months and 10 days since you graced the angels with your presence and not a day goes by that I don't think about you or cry.
I miss you entirely, I miss your laugh, your smile, your warm embrace, I miss our phone calls, our text messages, our knowing and understanding love for each-other. I. Miss. You.
Life's been tough since we said our final messages. I've said "goodbye" to two other people I love so so much, one of which was a few weeks after you... We watched the O&M Grand final, won and cried because we won - we did it for you. I started new medication, and actually stuck with it, I see Nan and Pop every week for a few hours, we're looking after each-other that I promise.
But something that I did, I did it for you. You'd be so proud of me AL, you'd be jumping with joy and excitement for me if you were here - and boy do I wish you were, but I know that if you were here you'd be in pain and I don't want that for you AL.
I did it. I finished my diploma and got accepted into a scholarship program for my bachelor.
I wonder if you already knew, the day I got accepted there was a big and bright rainbow across my workplace when I left that night. I looked up to it, cried and said,
"Hi AL, I did it. I got accepted into my bachelor. I love you."
I know that's all you ever wanted for us, to be happy, to be loved and to do the things we love.
I'm lost without you AL, I don't know what to do or how to feel but I know with time I'll heal, but it may take a while...
I vow to live though, for you and me. I will travel, go to concerts, go to shows, I will meet people and tell our story to everyone. I will live fully and happily - I promised you I would on our last night with each-other and I'll carry that promise til I see you again.
Christmas is approaching fast and that was always your holiday. It'll be a hard Christmas this year but we will do you proud. We will walk into the house you and your husband were building, we will set the table, decorate the tree and house to your standard and we will have the bocce tournament, we will break in the new house for you right on Christmas and Boxing Day, we promise.
I love you endlessly AL, until the time comes where we can embrace again, until the next rainbow I'll be here, living, loving and being for you.
"It is true,
In my heart,
I am blessed to have you."
Yours truly.
Your niece.
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The Only Letters
Short StoryA series of letters to those who deserve their titles... Basically there was/is this post going around Tumblr called, "Letters To You." And you have a series of sub-headings on which you anonymously write letters to people but never send them. And I...
