I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. Last night was fun and I had Niall sleeping in my arms again. I stared at him sleeping for a few before I snapped out of my trance and just went on twitter, I had a while until I had to leave and I didn’t feel like moving. I tweeted: baby Niall looks like a baby when he’s sleeping; and instantly Zayn tweeted back: Creeper watching him sleep. I laughed and replied to him saying that he was too darn adorable and for him to come look. We tweeted to each other back and forth for a while. He even mentioned our “date” last night. I was confused why he would say me and Ni were on a date but he explained it with a tweet saying: Last night. Holding hands and snuggling, watching fireworks. Everyone thinks it was a date. Fans are nosey and annoying. Yes I held and cuddled Niall but he does that with everyone. It’s not like it was just me, and we watched fireworks because it’s his favorite thing. I checked Niall’s twitter and it wasn’t good. He was getting more and more hate and people even told him if he didn’t stay away from me they’ll come hunt him down and kill him. I was getting pissed and even tweeted Zayn that I was on Niall’s twitter off his phone and wasn’t in a good mood about the stuff fans were saying. I wasn’t afraid if it offended the fans at this point, they need to stop.
I wanted to tell Zayn something, but I couldn’t say it over twitter so I told him to text me but he just said to go to his room. I couldn’t exactly move, I told him and he just came to my room. He looked at me and Ni and shook his head. “Talk to me Haz,” he said but I said no and that I didn’t want to say it loud. For one I didn’t want to wake Ni up and two I didn’t want Ni to find out this way. Zayn came over and sat next to me on the bed and looked up at me waiting on me to talk. “First off isn’t he adorable,” I smiled as I asked Zayn. He just smiled and agreed with me. Oh yeah! One point for Hazzy! I did a little dance and he just stared at me with the ‘really’ face. “Tell me Harold,” he finally spit out.
I bit my lip and looked down, it took me a minute to say anything. “You know I’m Bi right?” I asked not even looking up at him. He just said a simple yes waiting on me to explain, so I finally did. “I just realized I like Niall, I mean I’ve liked him since I met him when we were on the X-Factor but I didn’t really think anything of it. I just thought it was just a little crush but being with Niall for the past two days made me realize I actually truly do like him.” I finally looked up at Zayn and he had this big smile plastered on his face. I knew the ending was a lie, I like him but truthfully I’m in love with the boy. “I don’t know how to tell him Zayn.” “Aweeee wittle Hazza’s growin up!” He gushed at me. I looked down and at Ni with a slight blush. “Shut up! Help me Zayn I don’t know what to do anymore.” I looked back up at him hoping for some advice. I usually go to Louis but Zayn was awake and I just needed to talk to someone and he has good advice sometimes.
“Just talk to him” WELL NO DUH SHERLOCK. Zayn you’re not helping me. I looked down at Niall’s wrist and rubbed circles on it. “ I’ve tried Zayn, but it won’t come out, and I’m afraid of hurting him, and he’ll start it up again.” My eyes slightly opened wide when that slipped out. “Start up what?” My head snapped up at Zayn’s words and I quickly told him nothing but I was still rubbing Ni’s wrist and put my gaze back on it. Zayn followed my gaze, “he doesn’t….since when?” Why does he have to ask, I’m mentally abusing myself over this now do I tell Zayn or not, I decided against it. “I don’t know what you’re talking about” “Tell me the truth or I’ll go get Liam.” My eyes widened. Why does everything have to involve Liam for. So I just told him everything I knew. How he started cutting when he was eight because that’s when his brother was shaving and it was easier access to the blades. But it’s still a mystery why. I just wanted to go inside Niall’s head a find the reason why he’s been doing it since then, this boy is a mystery and I will find out. It took a minute for Zayn to speak but he just sighed and told me that if I tell Niall I have to stop flirting with every girl and guy I found attractive. I told him I didn’t flirt with everyone and he just shot back with a “yes you do.” I didn’t feel like arguing with him over it so I just looked up and straight into Zayn’s eyes. “Can you promise me something?” I asked but he didn’t even let me explain. “Harry, I think he feels the same way, but if he thinks you don’t, he might move on” Those words came out of Zayn’s mouth and I tightened my grip on Ni. I didn’t want him to leave or forget about him. I had to have Niall. “Would you keep waiting if you thought you didn’t have a chance?” He asked me.
“Hell no and you know that Zayn”
“Exactly so then why would he?”
“I don’t know Zayn, but before you go, promise me you won’t tell him you know about you know, and I’m leaving today to go home and I’m taking him with me”
“Really? Why”
“Stuff has been going on that I need to be there for”
“But why is Niall going?”
“Because I want him too, and I want to show him that there is a family that loves him”
“That’s sweet” I felt Niall move, I looked down and smiled as he opened his eyes. “Morning sleepy head” I said and looked back up at Zayn. “Yeah I guess Zaynie” Niall looked confused at what we were talking about. “What are you guys talking about?” He asked sleepily. I smiled and looked back at him. “About how I’m taking you with me for a few days to visit my family, that is if you would like to.” He smiled up at me, sat up and cuddled into my arms. “I would love to” He said nuzzling his head in the crook of my neck. “Good because I told my mum you were coming with me”
“A little presumptuous are we?”
“Not at all” Zayn left the room leaving us two alone. I explained to Ni that my mum called last night and that’s who was on the phone and told him that I needed to come home to help my sister with some stuff. But truthfully I think it’s because she wants me to come home so she can see me. I love my mum so either way I’d come home if she wanted me too. I untangled from Niall and got up. I told him to go get changed and pack for a least a week. He went and quickly packed, when he came back in he was still wearing what he had on last night. I questioned it and he just said it was comfy. He was too adorable for his own good. We grabbed our bags said a quick goodbye to the boys and got in my car.
“How longs the trip Hazzy?”
“About three hours” As soon as I said three hours his face turned into a pout.
“Sad. Three hours without being able to cuddle you” He started pouting even more.
“You can have my arm if you’re that desperate.” He smiled and curled onto my arm. I started the car and backed out of the driveway. I had a little trouble turning to get on the road but I managed and we started our journey to Holmes Chapel.
