the way you look at HIM {HeeJake, Enhypen, eng ver'}

3- if only I could...

*pos Heeseung*

I stood in front of the mirror and began to look at myself...
She hurt me... Minah, I can’t hate you for not loving me, but you didn’t have to throw flowers to my face, REALLY.
Yet someone helped me, I was never helped by no one, but he did.
When he helped me, when he smiled at me and when he cared for me, I just couldn’t get my eyes out of him.
Of course, he’s handsome, popular and kind, but there was something else at the time, when he helped me.
I felt like... like a void filling...
Suddenly, I wanted to help him too...
His face came back to me and I smiled.
He’s so cute when he’s worried...
Actually, he’s so cute all the time.
I start washing my face and thoughts go through my mind.
I like when he calls me "hyung".
I’m not the social type, I have few friends... I have Niki and that’s about it.
However, Jake is not like Niki. I don’t especially want to be tactile with Niki when I talk to him, whereas I want to touch Jake’s hair as soon as he’s near me.

I almost did today, on the roof, in the hallway when he was holding my hand, in front of the infirmary door, in the infirmary, on the way to the subway, on the way out of the subway, to the apartment, When he was eating, when I saw him coming out of the bathroom. Yeah, I know, that’s a lot.
I’m probably not gonna be able to stop myself tonight...
I’m going.

"-Jake?

-mh...?

Oh, he’s already falling asleep...

-I’m here.

-Hyung?

-yes?

"I am cold."

"I’m coming."

I slip into the bed next to him and I feel him grab my arm.
I turn to him and I see him sleeping peacefully with his head against my shoulder, he is so close to me.

By... by reflex... well, I think... I turned to him and grabbed his hand with mine and just watched him for a few minutes.
I could feel his breath, his breath on my neck and sometimes I could feel him rubbing his forehead against my shoulder.
I would call again and our faces were only a few centimeters apart and I could smell his hair or his skin...
My hand began to rise from his arm to his face and I started him to tile his hair...
They were soft and pleasant to touch, I saw him smile in his sleep and my heart warmed...
My face was really close to his...
I was tired and...
I approached my nose and gently rubbed our noses with a smile...
He couldn’t see me but I saw him give me back my smile before I finally fell asleep and still felt him holding my hand...

*time frame, morning*

I wake up and I still feel Jake’s presence...
I open my eyes, he has his head on my chest.
I don’t know if I moved or if my heart got faster and started banging so hard in my chest that it woke him up but Jake opened his eyes by yawning and turned to me.

-excuse me if I was too touchy last night...

He said, rising and blushing.

-no problem...

-it's because, I used to sleep with a lot of stuffed animals and pillows so I tend to be super cuddly in this kind of situation...

-I swear I really don’t have a problem with that, Jake.

He stopped arguing and eyes crossed mine.
Once again.

-yes- thank you Heeseung Hyung.

The way he pronounces my name is always surprising me.

"Are you hungry?"

His stomach answered instead.
And I started laughing.
He seems upset and I still have this urge to comfort him and touch his hair.
Should I restrain myself...?
He wasn’t embarrassed last time...
But it was night... he was asleep, he didn’t know...

I realized that I was still looking at him and I started to smile before leaning over him to touch his head...
His hair is soft.
I didn’t want to take my hand off him...
Without my realizing it, I begin to slide along his arm and my hands catch his, my eyes are immersed in his...
His eyes are so black... how do I know he’s really looking at me...?
I’d have to look even deeper into his eyes to find out.

Jake, can you just look at me and help me like you did yesterday, every day...?

Nobody really helps me, but you’ve helped me more in one night than anyone I’ve known in decades.

"I hope the next time you come you can stay in bed with me."

I realize what I just said, but Jake’s not responding.
He’s watching me.
Suddenly he gets closer to me and hugs me...
It’s hot... I feel it... I can almost hear our heartbeat and feel it.

"Yesterday I kept telling myself all day that I had to go to you, I made a promise to myself, at the end of the day, when I saw that it was you on the roof, everything suddenly became brighter.
I don’t know how to explain...
But good. thanks for letting me come to you, Hyung.

I still couldn’t figure out what was going on, but I liked it...

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Hi !! The next chapter is coming soon I am doing the translation asap ^^

-Nya 🌹