helpless: on pause

Chapter 6

During class one day I couldn't not stare at Brandon's shimmering blue eyes and his floppy blonde hair. He looked over at me and caught me staring. My soft blushing face changed into a disgusted-annoyed look and he frowned at my look and turned his head. It felt good making him feel guilty but part of me just wanted to be sitting next to him talking about all the random crap we talk about. I bit my lip as I felt my eyes getting teary. I jumped out of my seat and walked out of class kicking the trash can by the door. I heard Mr.Robinson yell my name as I stormed out of the class but I ignored him and ran out of the school. I didn't stop running. I just ran, ran, ran. All the way to the old deserted park that nobody goes too. I sat in front of a bench leaning my head against it. I pulled a pocket knife from my pocket and stabbed myself in the arm. I felt the pain rush through my arm. I screamed quietly and let the tears come out. I kept my head on the ground until there a was a warm hand on my shoulder. I turned around to see Brandon there with his eyes staring directly into mine. I yelled loudly,"GET AWAY!!!!!" He just stood there looking from the knife in my hand, to my arm, to my eyes. I was getting madder and madder. I stood up dizzy and yelled pushing him,"LEAVE NOW!" He stumbled but grabbed me by my waist and picked me up. He started running with me in his hands and I kept screaming. People stared from all around us but I didn't care and he didn't seem to either. I squirmed around in his arms and screamed louder and louder. Soon there was nobody around us. He let me down in the middle of no where in the woods. I looked around for a minute stopping my yelling. "Why am I here!" I said angrily. He replied," So we can talk." He said his words so soothingly it made me feel more relaxed but i shook the feeling away and curled my lip frustrated. "Why out here?!" Before he could answer I knew why,"What because your embarrassed to talk to me in front of your 'friends'." I started to walk but he pulled me back turning me around. He was trying to come up with a response but just shook his head. "Yea uhm I'm sorry Tori.." Tears filled my eyes again and i gave him a look that made him feel really guilty. "it's just they all think your...weird.." I raised my head and widened my eyes," Your just like them! Judging everyone and everything! Your a bitch. Just like all those jerks!" "I shouldn't even be wasting my time talking to you!" I yelled raising my hands in the air and running away.

-NeverlandDreamssss