you don't have to be sorry.

pity party

i didn't really want to be invited to the party.
that's what I said to you.
besides, party's come and go.
there always been another one.
it quite frankly broke my heart to see everyone together having the best time to date.
maybe it was a accident, did my invite really get lost in the post?
so I'll just throw my own little party with me and myself.
you could consider it a coping mechanism.
so I'll dance, sing, cry, talk, hope and wish that I'm included in the next one.
i can't seem to forget all the other times I missed out too.
im friendly, im nice, im funny.
so why aren't I aloud to come?
if I was to ask to come, it would just be a pity party, where u have to invite someone because they mentioned it.
not because you genuinely wanted them to come.
so I'll just go home, throw my bag down, put my headphones on, lay on my bedroom floor, and cry.
I'll be fine tomorrow.