you don't have to be sorry.

substantially want to be

substantial subscription to substances never helped the needy.
everyone smokes, drinks, and look good doing it.
i just chat, read, write, and look like a manic when doing it.
id love to smoke a cigarette and taste the burnt ash fill my lungs with ease.
nothing to gain, nothing to do.
it's not a craving, I don't smoke.
but it just makes everyone look 10x as better.
it wouldn't suit me though.
i suit my books, my headphones.. you know.
id love to live life like a pretty French girl, with the tiny nose with dainty body parts, bobbed black hair including a red beret to fill the theme, holding a gold accented cigarette.
but I wasn't born to smoke.