almost heaven

the fight and the memories

Jungkook did not speak on the rest of their ride to home..

Seokjin felt guilty for arguing with him.. his hand keep on coming back on Jungkook's thighs.. hoping it could ease the tension between them..

When Seokjin stops the car , Jungkook quickly opened the door and goes inside without waiting for the other.. he almost slammed the car door.. Jin sighed for the ninth time..

When Jin entered their room, there was no Jungkook, he went to the bathroom but he's not there..

He goes outside in search of his fiancee, to the guest's rooms, to their home offices, even in the library..
Until he heard a sound coming from the gym-

No!

He silently prayed that it was not what he's thinking..

But when came inside the gym ..

There was his pregnant boyfriend-
Busy punching on the sandbag!

Sweats all over his face and body, he was shirtless, so his cute baby bump was on display, he was already in his fourth months of pregnancy, he was still in his pants, he was bare foot..

"What are you doing!?"

Seokjin can't keep himself calm anymore.. he was exhausted! His youngest son was already laying at the hospital, and he doesn't want to bring another one .

"Boxing! Can't you see?!"

He answered without looking at him ,
Seokjin walk quickly towards him and pulled him away from the punching bag..

"You're the death of me Jungkook! When will you ever stop?? When you already lose that baby?"
Jungkook instantly glared at him
"That baby?!- that is how you called your child?!"

He trembles, though he's suppressing his tears from falling .. he looked at Jin angrily

Seokjin's mouths agape.. he didn't even realized the words he use could mean something like that to Jungkook..

Seokjin turn his back and lean his hand at the balcony rails..

"I can't believe this!"

Seokjin said watching the snow slowly falling to the ground..

Jungkook let's out a sarcastic laugh

"I can't believe you either!"

Quickly he returns at where the punching bag is and punch it harder, like he's letting out his frustrations on every punches he made.. but Seokjin take it badly so he pulled Jungkook out of the gym ..

"Let me go!!! Let me go!!! Let me go Seokjin!"

The first time he called him in his name .. that was a goosebump to Jin..
He stopped at the middle of the hallway going to their room

"What did you just called me?!"

His eyes become so dark, his hair falling Infront of his dark eyes making it more fierceful.. the grip on Jungkook's hand become even tighter that it could break his wrist bones..

And the veins on Seokjin's hand clearly showing..

Jungkook gulps.. he never seen Seokjin like this..

He never seen his eyes staring at him like that..

That could be the real definition of "eyes could kill"..

"I-i said - l-let go of me...hyung-"

But Seokjin shoved him at the wall of the hallway... He banged the wall three times with his both palms, while Jungkook was caged at the center of his arms..

"That's not what you said!!! Say it again!! I want to hear it !!! Say it again!-"

When Seokjin screamed , Jungkook just closed his eyes and whispered..

"Seokjin!"

Jin stops the banging on the wall his face was behind Jungkook's ears.. he didn't see how Jin smiled creepily..

"You're really ought for a fight,.. don't you Jungkooah?"

Seokjin whispered.. Jungkook's tears fell down slowly on his face.. eyes still kept close , as he slowly shakes his head ..

"I'm not. .."

"You are!"

"Hyung-"

Seokjin shut him up by pressing his lips on him..

One rough kiss.. that he almost eat him with his teeth.. he can feel his lips getting bruised and cut by how hard he was pressing those plump lips against his..

Jungkook's tears continuesly falling..

He doesn't felt loved..
He only felt like he was being raped..

Suddenly a moment of being tortured came back to his memory..

12 years ago..
Russia..

When the Russian Black Mafia caught them .. he was almost raped .. but Tae came just in time.. Tae manipulated their system and manage to retrograde everything.. before they could noticed anything, everything went under control in favor of Jackson's Team.. Min and Park killed everyone in that building by the help of Tae in watch.. Jungkook was druged, tortured and naked when they came, the leader was hovering him , his body was covered of tattooed..
because of system hacking he didn't even noticed the commotions outside the sound proof room where they hide and tortured Jungkook..

Tae managed to unlock the passcode of the room , Min and Park easily entered without being noticed .. Min and Park both showered his body with their pbullets .. his dead body drops on the floor.. Jungkook's eyes was open, he sees them but everything wasn't clear because of the drugs they used .. he was hallucinating , he only sees Jin -
No one else..

He was rehabbed for months.. and even though he had a little memory of that night.. he keeps on neglecting it..

It was his first mission outside Hong Kong.. and from then on, he never liked being bottom.. no one used him aside from Jin and no one could have him aside from Jin..

Flashback ends..

"No.. please no!... Don't do this.. please I'm begging you .. don't do this.. just kill me if you want.. just kill me.."

Jungkook keeps on chanting while shaking his head to avoid Jin from kissing him so rough..

Jin realizing something's wrong with Jungkook's words and the way he acted.. he stopped and watched him ...

His eyes deeply closed tears running down his cheeks, head keeps shaking left and right..

Until something hits him-

"Jungkook? Jungkooah what's happening?.. Jungkooah it's me.. baby what's happening??-"

But Jungkook seemed like he's not in his senses anymore.. his chants kept on.. until it became screams

"Stop! please stop!!! Don't do that! No!no!no! Please no!!!"
And he screamed his name
" Jin! Jin! Help me hyung!!! Please! Nooooo!!!"

Seokjin was already shaking him in the shoulders..

" Jungkooah baby.. it's okay.. I'm here..Jungkooah did you hear me.. I'm sorry ! I'm sorry baby?! I'm sorry! "

He stopped shaking his shoulder and hug him tightly.. almost realizing what he was going through.. his eyes teared up.. he cried silently while hugging Jungkook.. until he felt his knees weakened..

Jungkook collapsed..