almost heaven

it hurts.. until it won't

"The plantation in Canada needed a finalization.. I'm going to schedule a trip for a month or two, defending on the process .. the shareholders are requesting for the final breakdown of a total cost and profits of the company, thus either you or I needed the presence in there for the finality "

Hoseok said putting the folders above his table. Seokjin decided to get back working at the office.. it's been a week since he start the routine , he goes to the office at 7am straight to 10 or 11. . He'll go somewhere.. mostly at Tae's Mansion before he went home and get drunk to sleep..

"I'm going "

Hoseok stopped scanning the papers the CEO had signed ..

"I can go myself, you don't have to-"

"It's okay, Hoseok -
I need it"

Seokjin put the last documents he finished signing above his desk, leaning on the back rest of his chair..

"Make it two months.. I need to unwind. You stay here, take over"

Hoseok looked at him and sigh..

"It's repeating again"
He said, Seokjin open his eyes, turning at him, his deep dark brown eyes was questioning..

"What was it?"

"This is how exactly you are 15 years ago.. it's repeating all over again, you , locking yourself, staying away, muting everyone around you.. stop it Jin..."

Hoseok stand up , shoving both his hand on the pockets of his pants..

"Leave it behind. There's nothing you can do about the wrongs of yesterday..
Be sure you'll settle things out before you leave.. talk to him "

Seokjin did not reply but his mind was wandering through circumstances.. they almost lose thier baby and it was his fault, he doesn't know if Jungkook will still forgive him-

He's afraid!

It scares him, he realized how coward he is, that he wanted to run away.. but he needed to clear his mind.. and freed Jungkook from being stressed of him.

***

His car parked outside Tae's Mansion once again. He stopped the engine, though he did not get out of the car, Seokjin just stayed inside.. he knows Jungkook was there .. might sleeping, resting.. eating ...walking around.. enjoying-

He can imagine how his cute bunny teeth show everytime he giggles ..
How his eyes googly widening when he's excited.. how he pout his lips when he's upset....

Baby.. I'm sorry.. will you forgive me this time?..

The lights on one of the room turned off.. it was the room they used to stay..
Their room...

He stayed there for 3hours , he wanted to be near him.. at least he's near him, at least he knows he was just behind those windows.

It's already 2am when the car starts the engine.. Tae has been watching in the monitor, he knows it was Seokjin again.. he felt really bad for the couple but all he can do is watch and let them heal the heartaches them selves.. he witness how hard it is for Jungkook.. watching Jin over the window, crying behind the curtains..

But everytime he tried to call Hoseok and ask him to talk to his best friend..
He'll just say..
"It won't work.. let them fix things alone.. they don't wait 15years for nothing"

Tae knows Jungkook has been watching how Jin was staying outside the mansion ..

***

"Don't reply to him again !"

Jungkook was walking out from the kitchen with a glass of milk and a bowl of mix fruits in his hands, when he heard Namjoon in the dinning room.. he walked slowly and eavesdrop at them..

"But he's been there for hours every single fucking nights! And he keep asking about Jungkook, he's worried about his fiancee and their baby-"

"Then why he can't come here?! Why can't he just talk to him instead of staying outside for hours like a damn staker!?"

Namjoon was still angry with Seokjin.
Tae became silent.. when Jungkook was about to leave he heard Tae talk again in soft tone..

"He's leaving.."

They heard a sound like some glasses broke into pieces ,

Both of them turned their heads at the door of the dinning room ..Namjoon run as he saw a spilled milk, fruits and glasses broke into pieces scattered from the floor

"Jungkook are you okay?!"

Jungkook was sitting helplessly on the floor..

"Let me go home hyung, I wanna talk to him .. we need to talk"
He cries and plead at Namjoon ..

"You can't do that Jungkook ! Let him the one to go to you !"

"But you've been stopping him hyung .. I saw you! I heard you! He was pleading to see me but you punch and pushed him away!!!"

Tae glares at Namjoon.. he can't believe his boyfriend did that..

"You hurt him?! So he's trying to get here and you're the one whose stopping him??"

Tae holding Jungkook in his arms while glaring at Namjoon..

"he doesn't deserve him! Let him leave! And stay out of your life! You deserve someone better jungkook-
Not him!"

"No! He's the father of my baby hyung! We're just cooling everything off but it doesn't mean we're letting go of each other.. i will not live without him again! No way that would happen once more! "

"You're not going anywhere Jungkook! You almost lose the baby!.. listen to me, if he really loves you-
He'll win you back!- not him leaving you in pain!"

Namjoon walked away..
Jungkook just followed him with a fuming gaze
Tae rubbing him on the back..

"It's okay Jeon-
Trust me.. Seokjin was just trying to give you the space you needed. He's afraid of loosing both of you-
if he insist what he wanted, believe me Jeon-, it's also hard for him.. I've seen it. Stop worrying, Hoseok said it was just a business trip , he'll come back.. maybe that time both of you were healed"

Jungkook was looking at no where when speak..

"He's here last night .. he's always here.."

Tae knows from day 1, Seokjin has been there.. he had checked the CCTV's around his Mansion.. Tae was in awe knowing Seokjin has been roving around the mansion , parking everywhere.. staying for hours.. even with those heavy rains he stayed until the sun comes out, he kept texting him if Jungkook was okay..

If he's eating .. sending Tae those banana milks, and fruits, and cakes that he baked himself because Jungkook was crazy with it.. When Tae told him that Jungkook craves for a sea weed soup and samyupsal , he took off from his work load just to go home at 2pm to prepare him a special sea weed soup and samyupsal.. he brought it himself at the mansion, calling Tae,

"Don't tell him I made it.. he might not eat it if he knows.. I also made this kimchi for him ,it's great for his pregnancy.. and I cooked his favorite samyupsal thoroughly.. Taehyung make sure he'll eat it little by little "

Tae himself was touched seeing Seokjin was still in his work clothes upon delivering the foods ..

***
Seokjin was trying too hard to give Jungkook what he think he needed, he's on the watch even if he don't go near him or showing up on him.. he makes efforts secretly afraid that Jungkook will get mad again and then contractions will happen again-
No way!

That was the last thing he wanted to happen.. though his been drinking a lot to get through the pain and loneliness he felt.. but he doesn't want to take a risk.. if he only brings pain and stress to Jungkook then he's okay to sacrifice things for him..

He needed to drink...

Because nightmares from the past when he lost Jungkook 15 years ago was keep on haunting him.