My Best Friend's Brother

"You Look Awful."

Carter's POV

I hate Brad, I hate him and I hate his stupid looks, I hate everything, I hate how he made me feel sad. I hate how I'm sitting on the couch, I hate how I'm eating ice cream and crying, what else am I supposed to do?! I hate how I stabbed my spoon through the paper bottom of the mini ice cream cup.

I hate how even though I hate him, he's been the only thing on my mind. I hate how I still like him even though I hate him.

And there goes the doorbell..

I groaned and stood up doing the best I could at combing out my knotted hair, I opened the door only to see the people I was ranting about standing there.

Almost immediately I slammed the door shut in his face, what the hell is he doing here?

"Carter.." I heard him sigh from the other side of the door, I could feel the butterflies in my stomach still.

Go away butterflies, your not helping.

I bit my lip and slowly opened the door again, this time hiding mostly behind it hoping it would protect me,

"H-hi." I winced slightly when my voice cracked,

"Hey," Brad said staring at me, "You look awful."

I rolled my eyes, "Gee thanks, you really know how to make a girl feel better." I said about to close the door again

"Wait, wait, I didn't mean for that to come out." He quickly said putting his foot by the door to stop if from closing,

"If you didn't mean it, then you wouldn't have said it." I spoke quietly staring down at the floor as I held onto the door.

"I'm sorry, look c-can I talk to you?" He asked,

"You already have and you also insulted me, isn't that enough?! What do you want now, to hurt me even more than you already have-!!"

"Carter, I didn-"

"You didn't mean it? You said that before and I'm going to say the same thing I said before-mmh-" he cut me off by kissing me

I started kissing him back because he's that intoxicating, I felt like I wanted to kiss him forever, I felt like I wanted to be with him and only, but that can't happen, this is wrong enough already.

"I think you should go." I said after I quickly pulled away before getting deeper into the hole,

I think you should stay.

"Carter-" Brad started but I cut him off,

"Just go,"

Just stay,

"Carter, I-"

"Brad," It hurt to even say his name, I couldn't look at him, because I know that if I did, I would be reminded of everything.

"Y-you have a g-girlfriend."

"No, I-"

"Just go, please, just go."

Just stay, please, Just stay.

"I shouldn't have met you."

"You don't mean that." Brad said as I continued staring at the floor

Of course I don't mean it, stay!

"I know that I mean, just go, your not needed here."

"Carter-"

"Brad! Just freaking leave!!!!" I yelled causing him to jump then walk away as I slammed the front door shut then leaned against it.

Of course I don't mean anything I said, I don't want him to know, I actually know what heartbreak fells like.

I slid down my door and started crying...

(A/N this is the saddest chapter I have ever had to write. :'( - Cas x)