Today, I want to learn to be okay
So tomorrow, I can help others do the same
And I know
My recovery shouldn't be based around others
And honestly, it's not
I want to be happy
is that selfish?
I don't think so.
But a part of it is wanting to get better
to prove to everyone it's possible
and to have the ability
to help them get there too.
Is that so wrong of me?
Either way, I'll get there
Hell, I am getting there
there will always be struggles
But I'm getting there
Not my fault you don't believe me
Because that's the problem
you don't want to be left behind.
When I get better
And you don't move at all
That's gotta hurt
But I'm not going to
stay back
and keep giving you
what you want
I want to be okay
And if okay doesn't have you in it
Then I'm not sure how to go forward with this
Because I want you to be right there with me
But I don't know how
I'm sorry if I've let you down
But I can't let myself fall any lower
Not again.
Just wish you could be here with me.
That's all.
YOU ARE READING
Remembrance
Şiira poetry collection that somewhat follows my path into recovery. i'm not saying i'm there yet, or anywhere near 'mentally okay,' but i'm getting closer every day. TW for mentions of childhood trauma, abuse, divorce, self harm (no details, just a ref...
