A past incident
You thought that you could make me sink..huh, but you forgot I'm not a shade of pink. You made me glow, you made me blow, you made me dull and made me slow. You made me cry which made my throat dry, uhhh it hurts when someone you love drawn you in dirt. Fuck all the luck cuz ' everytime the life just sucks. I remember your touch which I hate so much.... Cuz' it made me bleed and plead to the person who wanted me to lead... But you forgot that I'm not a thing that can or could be lead. I still have that marks which take me to the dark. That memories make me sneak that I never want to sneak. My heart used to flutter whenever I saw you but now without you my life is smooth like butter. When you leave me, my heart started to shutter but now I know with you my life was like gutter. Now, I just want to strike you with a brick and never wanted to get into your tricks. I hope that I would be much more stronger to get out off your grip. I remember that trip that made me feel so sick cuz you forced and made me to strip and at that time I wanted to get out off your grip. Whenever I remember that Trip my heart slip. That grip of yours on my thigh always made me cry, when your nails were digged in my my skin and I was got pinned. I just wish it was just a dream.... Just a dream. You made my life hell but I'm here all well. But my past never let me sleep cuz you got a clever botch in your dreams, which just always made me scream that scream was of pain which made a stain on my lane. I knew that love is just a sensation of hormones playing game. Attraction played it's game which made me to fell for the person who wanted me to tame. Everybody say I came for the fame bit no one knows my past was so lame. I never cry so you think I am happy. You think that I always tried to sleep so I'm nappy. That's not the case man, I just can't sleep at one place man. I'm finding peace damn.... Just let me sleep in peace. I just need some ease so let me please. You all think that I'm too cold but my past.. It made me too cold that just can't be hold and can't be told. I know that I too bold and cold but don't think that I can or could be sold. I hold a lot of praise that y'all gave and made me raise and I'm just crazed to be in this world which is more like a maze. I got chased by this maze to all the days which made me more like caged in this fucking so much loved maze. I'm dazed because of this dark based maze. I'm all in stress which made me more and more depress. I'm called by all because of my fame which sometimes made me feel ashamed that the person who never even talked to me are now dying to meet or be with me.... Huh! Why is this feeling is giving me chills. I don't know Why deep inside it kills and made me more I'll. I'm in the stage of my life where I can pay my bills by my own and got chills each and everyday cuz that fu**ing nightmares make me awake and awake whenever I try to escape from this lame and fame. Everything came to me again and again which make me more and more ashamed of my past which I think is my last... Is my last.
Thanks to my nightmares!!
