I've Been There (SLOW UPDATES/ ON HOLD)

Chapter 6

Ross' P.O.V

Shor wanted us to meet at his place before we go out to dinner. When he doesn't answer, we walk in. We look around his apartment, finding him and Kelli cuddled together on the bed. We listen to them talk. "I love you, a lot. Like, so much," Shor says as Kelli traces his jaw.

"I love you a whole lot more," she whispers.

He reaches over and pulls a ring out of the nightstand drawer. "Wanna get married now?" He asks as he slides the ring onto her finger.

She nods, "yeah."

I smile at Carissa before we go back downstairs. We sit on the couch waiting for them. Rissa rests her head on my shoulder. "Maybe we should let them be tonight. So that we can be alone tonight," I smirk.

She shrugs before we leave, leaving a note to explain.

Shor's P.O.V

"Mm, stop it," Kelli giggles sexily as I trace her side. I shake my head, smiling. "Baby, stop it," she moans.

I pull her on top of me so she's straddling my waist. "I like you here," I bite my lip as I guide her hips back and forth.

She stops moving, looking down at me. "Shor, I can't do this today," she whispers.

I nod, staring at her perfect upper half. "Totally understand," I mumble as I thrust so her boobs jiggle. She climbs off of me with a scoff. "Babe," I whine as I follow her to the bathroom.

She turns around. "Shor, stop, okay!? I just want to be left alone right now!" She slams the door in my face.

I pick up her bra off the floor along with a shirt of mine. "I have your bra," I whisper. She opens the door, reaching her hand out and taking the articles of clothing. "Okay, can I come in there?" I ask softly.

"Do you not know what today is? I didn't even want to go as far as we did," she opens the door to look at me.

I back up against the opposite wall. "I-I pressured you in-into it?" I stammer.

She shakes her head. "No, I just.. I didn't want to even make out today. I-I wanted to be left alone today but somehow I got so close to having sex with you. I don't know. Maybe we should go on a break until I'm stable," she murmurs.

I widen my eyes. "Kelli, no. Please dont," I walk closer to her. She shakes her head again as she attempts to wipe her tears. "I have to help you," I say as i gently touch her waist.

She pushes my chest. "How!? You don't know how i feel, do you!?" I stay quiet, allowing her to get whatever she needs to, out. "Exactly! You had a perfect family! My dad raped me on a daily basis, my mom abused me, yet I loved them to death! They were the only people I could look to for help! I-I," she gets caught up in her words.

"Yet you hurt yourself as an escape from the horrible lifestyle," I finish for her. She looks up, nodding slowly. "So if you don't think I know you well enough, why'd you say you'd marry me?"

She looks down at her hands. "I-I.." She takes a deep breath. "I need a minute," she runs out of the room, throwing the shirt on in the process.

I quietly follow her to the roof of the complex. I stand back, not wanting her to know I'm behind her. "I love you," I blurt. Shit. "I love you so much, Kelli. Words can't describe how afraid I am of losing you. I get so scared to leave you alone, because I feel like you're never going to come back. It kills me how much you're hurting. But I'm trying my best to make you happy again. I just need you to want to be happy again. I need you to want me to help you. And if you don't, I'm sorry then. I'm sorry I can't make you feel better and I'll see you around," I say absentmindedly.

Shit, I didn't want to say anything. It just came out.

She stays quiet for a few moments. I nod to myself, knowing where I stand. "Okay, well.. I'll see you around I guess," I sigh as I turn to leave.

Kelli stands up. "Shor, wait," she grabs my arm to turn me around. "I don't want this to be the end," she whispers as she wraps her arms around my neck.

I gently place my hands on her hips. "Neither do I. But you can't keep doing this," I reply as I push hair away from her face.

She pushes her forehead against mine, I close my eyes. "I'm so sorry. I'm just not in the best mood today," she says softly.

I nod, gently pressing my lips to hers. "I know, and I get that. But you're doing so amazing with holding up. You're so good at hiding it, but I need you to show me. I can help you, if you let me."

She pulls away, looking scared as hell. She keeps backing up every time I step closer. "I can't show you. I-I can't. You'll hate me, you'll leave. I can't risk that," she puts her hands up.

I grab her hands, jerking her closer to me. "Kelli, stop it. I'm never going to hate you."

"I can't even risk it, Shor. I can't stand to see disappointment in your eyes. I love you too much and I'm trying to protect you from what's inside of me. I don't want you to see the monster-"

I cut off her rambling by kissing her passionately. She tried pushing me away, but I held her face closer. She kept trying to get away, but I kept pulling her closer to me. I pull away for air. "Stop," I look into her eyes. "You're the.. the love of my life."

That was the first time, those words have left my mouth, making it hard to say to her.

She smiles weakly. "I hate you," she giggles.

I smile as I pull away. "I hate you too," we walk back downstairs.