I don't know what to do like everything is scarring me rn. Like what I remember and what I don't and what I'm told and what I'm not isn't adding up. And like if I'm right then I don't want to find out but I can't get myself to let it go. I'm just scared. I can't handle another big thing rn. I'm already hurting enough. I feel so unsafe in this house. I'm so scared how much more secrets there are that I don't know. Like do I even want to know. I am just barely holding on like idk how much longer it'll be until I complete fall apart. I really need a hug. I wish I had a safe adult in my life but all of them have let me down. I just need a safe person I can go to. I feel so alone. I'm so scared.
