TW: sa
It happenee years ago and he's dead. Everyone wants me to be over it. Everyone wants me to act like I'm ok but idl how to do it. I saw someone at work who looked similar and haf a similar walk and I freaked out but I had to stay calm cuz I was at work. I feel like I get triggered too easily. When we have to read stories in class I didn't find the sa as triggering as the story being about an alcoholic. He was an alcoholic and it makes me think about what he must have gone through and that I'm just being selfish and self centered. But he really hurt me. I feel his hands on me and it never goes away. I don't feel safe sleeping around people. Sometimes when I'm really feeling hurt about it I feel like I just become a ghost. Everything will get so hard again and it feels like I'm not really there. Idk how to get over this. I want to so bad.
