Why can't I just be enough. I play along and start to open up to my mom and she fucking betrays me again. She tells everyone I'm the problem even tho I didn't do anything. She can never see I'm hurting. My emotions are never valid and she doesn't think I've gone thru enough to be this mentally fucked. I so badly want to be seen. I want to be really heard. I want her to see I'm hurting and realize I have been thru a lot. I want her to see that she is hurting us. She is the reason our family is staying broken.
I just want a safe person. Someone I can go to when I need a hug. Someone who will tell me my feelings are valid. I want to be seen. I want to feel loved. I want to be believe. Fuck I want to feel safe for once but in this house that's impossible.
