We were once 5

Break Down

"How close are you with Rose March?" Asks Max.
Wow that's actually a hard question to answer. How close am I with Rose? We never hang out together, we don't have the same group of friends, or talk much out of school... But then, she's one of the only person at school who really knows me and cares about me. I take in a big breath before answering.
"Rose and I are...close. We're not friends either though. But we know we're here for each other."
Saunders nods and scribbles something on his notepad.
"And how well did you know her older brother, Sirius March?"
This time the answer was easy.
"I didn't really know him. When I used to go at Rose's place when we were friend, he was always annoying. So I guess I didn't really like him...Actually, no, I just didn't care about him." I say.
"Thank you."
They kept on asking a couple questions about Rose and her family until the last bell of the morning rang.
"We're going to let you go and eat now. Don't mind coming back if you have any questions or information you think we should know." Says officer Saunders.
I nod and leave the room.

I walk around the school for a good 15 minutes before I find a spot and lay down on the grass. What the fuck is going on. And why am I involved? I mean, yeah, Rose used to be one of my best friends, but not anymore. So how on earth am I related to Sirius' case? Unless all of this is linked to Emily... I don't understand and it's freaking stresses me. I am not ready to start all of it all over against the police questionings, the local news interviews... I can't, I just can't.
"Rachel? Are you okay?" Asks a voice.
I turn around to see Max walking to me. He sits on the grass next to me and I burry my head in my hands. I let you a few sobs despite me.
"Oh don't cry. Everything is going to be okay." He says, clearly not knowing what to do in front of a crying teenager. "Do you want to, um, talk about it?"
I look around us. Everything is silent, the field usually filled with students playing football is now empty.
"I just don't think I'm ready for all of that to start again. Emily died not even a year ago, I didn't have one good night sleep since then, and I just can't be involved in all of that again. My nerves will break with a capital B. Plus, how on earth am I related to Sirius? Even when he was around I didn't talk to him. I just can't!" I exclaim in one breath.
We both stay silent after my long declamation. Helena was right, they won't tell us anything, I'm wasting my time. I grab my bag, stand up and start walking towards the dining hall.