One Night #WATTYS2015

Chapter 15: My Heart Is Broken

WARNING: POSSIBLE TEAR JERKER!

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I walked to Les' house with the feeling of courage and determination. I was so excited that I think it was causing the baby to kick; which caused me to smile widely.

I made it to his front door and knocked on it a couple of times.

The door opened to reveal Les' mother Carol, "Well, Hi Cypress I haven't seen you in a while. How are you doing!?" Carol exclaimed.

"Hi, Mrs. Anderson! I'm good." I smiled.

"How's my grandchild doing?"

I put my hand on my growing baby bump and said, "It's doing fine." I said with a genuine smile, "Um, Is Les here?"

Carol stopped to think and said, "Last thing I remember is him going up to his room. You can go and check, sweetheart."

"Thanks." I smiled at her.

I walked upstairs and made it to his door. I was about to open it when I heard him talking to someone, but I couldn't make out what they were saying and then I recognized the female voice as Farrah's.

I opened the door to see Les kissing Farrah and pushed her off, and said, "Stop..."

My face drained of it's color and shock traveled through my body.

This was a stupid idea. I thought.

I stood there in the door and stared at them. I didn't know what to say. Then, Les turned and saw me. His face grew with shock, "Cy..."

I turned to leave but Les stopped me by grabbing my arm, "Let me go." I hissed.

"Cy, please it's not what it looks like." Les tried to explain.

I looked up at him, "Really, then what is it suppose to look like?" I hissed back at him.

"Oh, Les!" Farrah called.

"Farrah I already told you twice to leave!" Les shouted.

She gave him a look and left; but before leaving she gave me a look and said, "Cypress." she said with a bitchy tone.

"Leave." Les stated, and with that she left.

I tore my arm from his hands and turned to leave again; but Les stopped me once again, "No, Les I'm leaving too."

"Damn it, Cy listen!"

"No, you listen!" I shout, "I thought that you actually loved me; but that's not the case now is it?"

"Cy, I-" I put my hand up to stop him.

"I came here to pour my feelings out to you, but no I catch you locking lips with her and I just can't...I got to go." I said harshly.

"Will just let me explain! She ki-" I cut him off once again.

"What? Let me guess she kissed you, right?" I said with cold sarcasm, "You know with all that's been going on, sometimes I feel so tired of being here. Suppressed by all these childish fears and If your going to do this I wish you would just leave me alone. Because all these thoughts of you still linger in my head, and they won't go away." I said through tears.

"Cy, I would never hurt you intentionally. She came here trying to get back together-"

"I'm done Les. This is to much for me!" I shouted and turn to run down the stairs.

I as I ran down the stairs I tripped and fell, "Ugh!"

"Cy!" I heard Les shout before I blacked out.

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I'm laying down in my hospital bed staring at the wall.

I should have never ran down those stairs. The same thought kept running through my head.

My eyes were all red and semi-puffy from all the crying.

"Ms. Rose." a tall middle aged man said to me as he walked in.

I looked at him not saying a word.

"Well, we tried everything we could, however, the baby was premature and had significant trauma... I'm sorry." the doctor said.

Tears started to fall before he even finished.

"Girl or boy?"

"Girl..." he said gently, he left and closed the door behind him.

"No!" I shouted with tears running down my face.

The door opens and Les walks through with tears running down his face. He comes over to me and sit in the chair next to the bed.

"They said I lost it. Lost it...like I lost my keys or something..." I whisper through tears.

"I know..."

I look at him and a jolt of pain stabs through my heart.

Les grabs my hand, "Les, don't touch me I'm already crying." I said and pulled my hand away.

Les looks at me with my own emotion reflected onto his own face.

"Cy."

"Just go." I said I couldn't even look at him without feeling some sort of emptiness and pain in my heart.

"You know you're not the only one who lost the baby. I did too and I'm hurting just as much as you." Les said, "Just know I don't blame you for this...Cy I still love you and that won't ever change." Les added before he left.

Sobs started to racked my body and I threw my pillow at the wall.

I wished that this never happened. I thought.

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Dear Readers,

I know this is really emotional and a lot of you guys are probably upset that the baby died. Please comment your thoughts/feeling about this chapter.

Sincerely, Ana