My name is Jenurah but you probably know that! This is a book of love letters to someone I haven't met yet.
When I was little I used to sing and dance in my room.
Every song I sang was for you. I love you.
I've prayed for us everyday since August 2021. I trust and believe that God saved someone for me. I know that you're out there. My beautiful, strong, loving, warm hearted husband. When I find you I'll show you this. So, not to be pushy, but if you're reading this right now it means I truly believe with all of my being that God sent you to find me, and that our connection is Holy. And if you're reading this right now I want you to know I've loved you and prayed for you long before you ever touched me. There aren't enough stars in the sky to count how many times I've thought of you, trying to predict what your name could be, or how your voice sounds or what you may look like. In my imagination you speak to me sweetly. You love cuddles just as much as I do. You pay attention to the little things and you listen to me. You really hear me. You protect me. You understand my past, and you're gentle with me. You're patient and strong willed and determined. and you're just as scared as I am. But you're brave, like me. I don't want to imagine anymore. And if you're reading this right now I hope you don't think I'm crazy. I just know you're everything that I've prayed for. I always ask God to send me a sign, so when we meet I'll know it's you and so that eventually having to explain this won't be so awkward. Please, please, please don't hurt me. If you're reading this, I've already imagined us getting married.
And if it isn't meant to be, I'll enjoy every moment I have with you and grow from every lesson that you teach me. I'll love you as much as I can for now because loving you feels so good, and comes so naturally. I'll never push you away. I'll always pull you closer to me. I want to be as close as possible. I never want a space between us again.
Please come find me.
(P.S. this isn't me asking you to marry me)
