This is my burden to carry [Competed]

𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 1

|Sanzu POV|

As I was walking down the hallway I could feel everyone's eyes on me. It made me nervous I then felt someone slam me into a wall making me hiss in pain I looked up to see it was Ran who slammed me into a wall he was looking down at me "You fucking Slut how could you cheat on me!" his voice was loud. This made me confuse and shock "what...?" he then showed me a picture that was on his phone and made me even more shocked.

The picture was of me getting fucked I wanted to vomit at the sight. I tried to explain what happened, but I was cut off once I felt Ran punch me harsh and hard in my stomach making me choke on air. He didn't stop I didn't cry I just took it after the bell rang everyone left to go to their classes and so did Ran. I was left on the ground aching in pain.

I slowly sat up and coughed a bit I took my mask off to see blood dripping from my mouth. I wipe my mouth and place my mask on again. I didn't feel like going to class so I walked to the rooftop and sat there looking at the dark clouds the weather looked like it was going to rain.

I pulled my bag near me and grabbed out my phone to see everyone was talking about the video that had recorded the whole thing that happened before I watched the comments going off and I felt guilty more and more as time goes on. The comments were that I should kill myself, words like Slut and Faggot and much more. Some were about how they can finally get Ran.

I saw some of my friends threating me, but I didn't mind I have been told these words a lot during my childhood, but it did hurt a bit that it was from then I really thought they would allow me to explain instead of making assumptions. I felt tears building up, so I harshly slapped my face to make it stop. I remembered that night the picture was taken, I didn't have a choice they were threating to hurt Ran and Rindou and all my friends.

They then raped me and forced me to do things I chuckle at the horrible memories I really thought Ran would let me explain but he didn't. I deserved this and plus this is my burden to carry no one else's I can't blame anyone except me.

I felt the cold rain fall from the sky I laid down letting the rain fall down on to me. I let the build-up tears fall down my mask was off since no one will come up here since no students were allowed up here due to past incidents of students smoking and having sex up here.

The scars on my body from the males were still there, the scars I've made myself was there. I sigh and feel my clothes beginning to stick to me. Ran was my happiness and now it's gone I started laughing well the tears rapidly fall down. Even though it hurts I don't care I stood up and saw how far up I was Ran and Rindou were the only reasons why I'm still here they were why I kept going but now I know they would never want me again I betrayed them.

My thoughts were hazy I was walking closer and closer, but I heard the door to the roof being slammed open it was Baji I look at him and see him panting and trying to catch his breath "You also going to tell me to kill myself, or how I'm a slut?" I asked I watch his eyes widen "no I wanted your side" this made me shock, but I looked away looking and looked back at the edge of the roof top and leaned over "It was forced sex" this made him shock I sat on the edge of the building and just gaze upon late students or adults outside the school walking.

I watch as he sat next to me on the edge and gave me a hug and first I flinched, but I then relaxed in his arm but then pulled away. He stood up and held his hand out so he could pull me up, so I did, and I stood up and hear him say "let's go then" I lazily nod.

I placed my mask back on and followed Baji down the stairs to get back down from the rooftop. I watch how people look at me in disgust I saw Koko eyes filled with concern as he saw me soaked from the rain, but I looked away. I continue to walk through the hallway with eyes following me, I saw how those I called my friends look at me in disgust, but I deserve it, it was my fault.

I finally made it to my class which Rindou, Ran's younger brother also had but I ignored him and sat at my disk to see all the death threat I roll my eyes and mumbled "do it then nothing is stopping you" as I sat down in my chair and looked outside as the rain fell 'I wish I was home sleeping now'

|Rindou POV|

I watch how that cheater walked in we made eye contact and he then walked pass me I saw how wet his clothes where and the red stains on his clothes where Ran had punched him. I look at his desk and saw all the death threats I know he cheated on my brother, but death threats are a bit overboard, so I was a bit concern.

Then I hear him mumble something which made me shock 'what...?' I shake my head. I should be angry at him, but I couldn't when I remember how happy Sanzu was with Ran and how Sanzu would look after me as if we were brothers or something he did lots of things for me and Ran, something just doesn't add up.

During class I notice how out of it Sanzu was and how others threw things at him and how the teacher didn't care and continued to teach. I know I'm supposed to be angry I just can't I still see him as a brother but more of a mother figure I guess snice he would always cook dinner for us when he came over, he looked after us when we were sick and much more he treated us something we haven't felt or a long time since our parents abandoned us at a young age so we didn't know this type of stuff but when Haru-Sanzu showed us we grew attached.

I grabbed a paper and wrote him a note asking, 'How are you?' I passed the note to Sanzu who looked at me in fear I was shocked, it did hurt a bit when I saw him look at me like that, I watched him nervously take the paper and read it as I watch his eyes widen and tears threating to fall out I've never seen him like this.

I watch him write back and pass me the note and turn back to the teacher and wrote the notes down snice we have our exams soon. I looked at the note I had in my hands and was now reading what he had wrote back.

|Readers POV|

How are you? – Rindou

Feel like dying I could be doing better but shouldn't you be angry at me I mean I had sex with some other men? You should hate me like the others. I thought you were going to send me death threats and all that like others. If you keep talking to me everyone will begin to hate you and possibly your brother so stop!

This shocked the purple haired male he looked at the masked male who was focusing on the teacher then the bell rang so Sanzu quickly pack his things up and rushed out not waiting for Rindou as he knew the male will try and say something.

Rindou just sat there in shock as he was now even more concerned about the male who quickly walked out of the classroom. Rindou was trying to think if he should ask if Sanzu he alright or try to follow Ran he slammed his head onto his disk for not able to think about the right decision.

It was now lunch time

Sanzu sat in the bathroom stall with a bloody razor in his hands his arm was painted with the red liquid that was oozing out from all the cuts on his arm's making it look like an ocean and bloody one. The blood dropped to the floor as he closely watched it happen.

He just wanted to cry and cry and wake up from this nightmare he wrapped his arm up which was turning red but not like he cared. He placed the razor into his pocket and looked up at the mirror "even if you guys hate me I'll still protect you" he whispered not realizing he wasn't alone.

Behind the door was Rindou he was shocked at the other male words he had multiple questions in his mind. But he quickly walks away and goes over to his brother who was making out with some girl making his eyes widen then he sees Sanzu walk out and sees the two making out.

Rindou could see how much it broke the poor male, but Sanzu walked pass the two which Ran had taken notice off, but he was soon shocked.

He saw Sanzu walk past with tears running down his face that was the first time both brothers had seen the pink hair cry. Sanzu has never cried in front of the two or anyone no matter how much pain he had felt nor how sad something was he kept it bottled up or cry once he was alone.

Ran felt off even making out with this girl he didn't feel complete instead he felt empty not having Sanzu loving him near him or in his arms. Ran stopped making out with the girl who then walked away smiling. Ran places his head against his younger brother shoulder "It hurts" he mumbled "yea it does" Rindou mumbled well tears slowly fell down.

"I miss him" he hears his older brother say and his shoulder begin to get wet. Rindou wraps his arms around Ran and whispers "same..." the two males cried in each other arms alone together barely holding on to each other while tears rushed down their faces.