The Blind Mirror Of Love

chapter 16 / breaking down

Zayn's POV :

All my life , all my freaking life I was looking for someone to take care of me , someone to love me , and I thought I found her , I thought I finally found the love of my life , I didn't care if she was blind , hell , I wouldn't care if she was on a freaking wheelchair .
( A/N I don't mean to hurt anyone , don't hate me )

I was thrilled when I found Angela , I WAS the happiest man on earth , but no , life hates me too much to give me that , I loved the girl with everything I had , but she just lied to me like that , I was doing everything to make her happy , because it made me happy myself .

I looked down at her , I can already feel the tears in my eyes , and she was already crying , I can't say anything , hell , I can't even freaking move .

" zayn please , let me explain , please I was really going to tell you tonight , please give me the chance to explain " she said and held my hand in hers , and I quickly pushed it away , I can't even look at her right now .

" I gave you too much of my time , I gave you too many chances , and unfortunately I gave you my heart to break it " I started and she looked down .

" why did you do it ? , was it the money you wanted ?! " I said and she instantly looked up , shaking her head .

" how could you think of me that low , zayn , I really loved you , and I really cared for you , and my love to you had nothing to do with the money , I love you " she said and I just think that the hole in my heart got bigger , I wanted to hear those three little words fall from her beautiful lips , but not like that .

I found myself laughing coldly at her words .

It really hurts now even more .

" love me ?! You couldn't love me to save your life Angela , you don't love me " I said and it hurt me like hell .

I took my wallet out of my pocket , and got 200 £ pounds out , and I looked at her , she looked confused , I took her hand in mine harshly , and placed the money in it , she looked up at me still confused .

" here's some money , if you need some , I will leave , and I don't wanna see you again , or even hear you voice again , I think you'll be OK on your own , your not blind after all " I said coldly and turned around to walk away but she held my hand again .

" zayn , please !" That's all she said , but I can't stand to even stay here anymore , I will just go back home and cry myself to sleep .

I pushed her hand away from mine again , and turned around again for the last time .

" never see you or hear your voice again " I said and with that I walked away from my love , promising to never come back .

As soon as I was away enough to not hear her soft sobs , the tears started to roll down my cheeks like there is no tomorrow .

" Mr . malik are you OK ?! " the driver I rented for the night asked me .

" drop me off at the nearest bar and leave , I'll just take a taxi back home " I said while climbing into the car , he nods his head at me with a quick "yes Mr. Malik" and then he sped off .

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It was now midnight and I was drunk as hell , I couldn't even see straight , and I could feel my phone ringing for the 200th times .

" shhh ... " I said to my phone while hitting the cancel button again , and smiling to myself .

" another please " I said to the bartender , and he looked up at me with concerned look .

" sir , I don't think that's a good idea , you've had too many , I'm afraid that I can't give you anymore alcohol " he said .
All I could see now was red , I was so angry at the bartender for not allowing me more alcohol , i was angry at Angela for lying to my face , I was angry at Liam for loving her friend , I was angry at harry for loving her other friend , I was angry at niall For talking to me about her , I was angry at Louis and his girlfriend for loving each other , I was angry at my phone for ringing too much , and I was angry at myself for being so stupid , and naïve .

I fisted the boy's shirt and brought him closer to my face .
" listen to me , I fu*king give you money , and you give me the fu*king alcohol , that's what you take the money for , now give me the motherfu*king drink , or I promise you I'll hurt you , pretty boy " I said and pushed the boy away from me and he nodded , afraid of Me .

I smirked to myself , and my phone started ringing again .

Fu*k , what now ?! .

I picked up my phone and answered it without even looking at who was calling .

" WHAT ? ..." I yelled into the phone , the bartender flinched and I smirked .

" ZAYN FU*KING MALIK , WHERE THE FU*K ARE YOU ? IT'S 1 AM AND YOUR STILL OUT ! " Liam's voice pounded through my ears .

" Liam , your voice is too loud for my liking " I said while giggling .

Fu*king giggling .

- " ZAYN ARE YOU FU*KING DRUNK ?!"

- " stop yelling Liam , it hurts "

He shigh through the phone but calmed down .

- " where are you zayn ?!"

I looked around the place .

- " I'm .... Somewhere "

He sigh again .

-" zayn please come back home . the lads are all here and we're all worried about you man ! " .

I thought about it and sighed through the phone .

- " fine I'm coming " I said and hung up , and turned my phone off , not wanting to hear it again .

I threw the money for the boy not even caring how much it was , and walked off the bar , stopped a taxi , and got Inside , told the driver the address of Liam's flat .

After the driver stopped , I gave him money and again not caring how much it was .

" keep it " I said and stumbled out of the car , and towards the front door .

I pounded on the door , and in a matter of seconds , the door was opened to reveale , my four mates , they all gasped when they saw me , and I smiled at them , and then everything went black .

I was out .

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Oh my god , that was ................. So sad . I almost cryed . almost .

Please don't be mad at me , I tryed my best though , hope you like it .

And if you do , vote and comment .

By the way , that was marlin's idea to leave a small note at the end , she said it's a sign of respect , and it's not that bad actually , so .... Yah .

Lots of love .

Manar . Xoxo