The Blind Mirror Of Love

chapter 18 : i can't lose you , not like that .

WARNING : THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SELFHARMING AND CUTTING , PLEASE BE AWARE , AGAIN THERE WILL BE CUTTING SO DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU .
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ZAYN'S POV :

My temperature was up in the sky , it felt like i was dying , but again , I wasn't living without her .

I hate her , but in the same time I love her .

I want her dead but in the same time I can't live without her .

I know I won't be fine .

I know I won't be OK without my baby , without my love .

I got off the bed after laying there all day , and after I changed my clothes I went downstairs .

The boys were all setting on the sofa talking about god knows what when niall saw me walking in .

" zayn ?!!" He said making all the boys turn around .
" zayn why did you got out of bed ?! , you need to rest " harry said .

I didn't even look at them , and went to the kitchen to grab some water .

Then I pulled my hoodie up my head to cover almost half of my face .

And took my sun glasses , and pulled them on , then went to grab my shoes when Louis held my wrist .

" where do you think yourself going ?! " he said with gritted teeth .

I snatched my wrist out of his grip , and continued to put my shoes on .

" I SAID WHERE THE FU*K DO YOU THINK YOURSELF GOING ?! " he yelled at me while pulling me from the collar of my hoodie .

I just didn't talk , I pushed him away from me harshly that he almost lost his balance .

I opened the front door , but Louis was faster than me .

" ZAYN ..." He yelled again while pushing the door close again , pulling me inside from the collar of my hoodie again , but this time , he punched me in the face .

[ A/n I totally forgot what I was writing about , and was thinking of what Louis should have done when he fought with zayn after he left , on twitter ] .

I felt the blood pouring out of my mouth .

" LOUIS .. STOP " niall yelled at him .

" no he should man up , and think about what he's doing , he will ruin his life if he Got out of that door , and I care so much to let him walk away " Louis said and then looked at me and glared .

" so he should suck it , and get his life back on track , your too weak for my liking zayn " he said to me , and I couldn't take it anymore .

I cryed and cryed in Louis' arms While he tried his best to comfort me with his beautiful voice whispering sweet nothings in my ears , till I fell asleep .

Yet another day to cry myself to sleep , and lots more to come .
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Angela's POV :

I'm dying without him , I can't live like this , I just can't .

I can't take it anymore , this felt just like the time that I lost my parents , I just can't live like this .

2 days , it's been two days and it already feels like 20 years , and it seems like the hole in my heart is getting bigger .

I felt the pain tug on my heart strings , I felt the darkness pulling me back down , I felt like I lost everything .