The Blind Mirror Of Love

chapter 20 / half a heart without him

Zayn's POV :

I walked in the street , I just couldn't take the thinking anymore , and the more I think about what am I supposed to do , the more I got confused .

I was pulled out of my thoughts when my phone rang .

" hello " I said without looking at the phone screen .

" look , just....just take care of yourself zayn , please just ...don't go to where I think your going , please zayn , don't drink , we have enough problems already " Harry's voice rang through my ear .

I sighed .

" don't worry , I ... I just need some air , I won't drink " I said back , hearing him sigh and then he hung up .

I kept walking not knowing where I was going nor I cared about it .

I just needed to get my thoughts cleared .

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Alex's POV : {finally}

I am devastated , I don't wanna lose her like that , we've already been through enough problems in our life , after losing our family , and her cutting problems .

I can't lose her , not that way .

And I surely can't blame zayn for what happened , she started the whole being blind thing , so it's not his fault .

But .... But him leaving her the way he did was just not right , he should have gave her a chance to explain herself , but also he had every right to be mad and angry and disappointed with her .

But I'm her brother and I should be at her side , but ....
Ugh I'm so sick of that , I don't know what to do or how to fix that .

" hey mate " niall said .

I tried to smile at him , it didn't reach my eyes though , this is just too much to me .

" hey " I said slowly , with a sigh .

He patted me on the back and just sat there silently .

The air was thick , everyone's breathing heavily , long glances to each other .

And this was so wrong , I was exhausted , and my breathing was uneven .

Everything was spinning , and suddenly everything went black .

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Louis' POV : ;-)

We were just sitting outside of the door .

And everyone was breathing deeply and unevenly .

Alex looked the worst man , didn't eat , didn't drink , and just didn't move .

I don't blame him though , it's his sister after all .

We were just sitting there when I looked up at alex , he looked pale , and exhausted and then , he just fell on the floor , blacking out .

" ALEX " I shouted and ran to him , catching him before his head hit the floor .

" DOCTOR , SOMEBODY HELP PLEASE " harry shouted while I picked him up in my arms and some doctors came running to us .

They took him from my arms , and I heard niall crying , he was having a panic attack .

I held him in my arms to try to calm him down .

" this is too much Lou , too much " he murmured in my neck while he was shaking .

" I know Ni , I know " I said to him .

And indeed this was too much for any human , no matter how strong this human is .

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Angela's POV :

* two days later *

Pain , I felt noting but pain .
It feels weird , it feels painful yet it feels so good .

I know I'm not dead , I know it because I felt him here next to me , I really wanted to wake up , but I just couldn't .
I can smell him still , and I know I felt his lips on mine , now that's the only reason I should try to open my eyes .

I pushed through the aching pain in my head and struggled to wake up .

I tried to move my hand to grab anything to hold on to , luckily I felt a hand in mine .

" c'mon Angela , wake up , I know you can do this , c'mon " I heard a voice say , but I couldn't recognize it .

I opened my eyes slowly , and my vision was blurry , I can see figures in the room .

I closed my eyes again , because the lights were too much , and I tried to open it again , this time I can see harry standing right in front of my eyes .

And Louis next to me holding my hand , so I think it was his voice .

I trailed my eyes around the room , I was not happy that I was alive , and I surely was not happy to not see him in the room waiting for me to wake up .

And now I am pissed off , I wanna kill Alex , why the fu*k didn't he just let me die .

" welcome back Angela " I heard niall say .

" you really scared us to death " Emma said .

" I swear to god if you scared me like that again I will kill you myself " sally said .

" I missed you sis " Alex said , and I really lost it then .

" shut the fu*k up " I said to Alex .

He flinched at my words , and frowned , mirroring everyone's reaction .

" I hate you , you should have let me die , why didn't you just let me , I hate you and I don't wanna talk to you again , you just wanna see me suffering , get out , I don't wanna see you " I said to my brother .

Tears were streaming down his face .

" Angela calm do-" Louis said but I cut him off .

" no , I don't wanna see him , I should have been dead by now , yet he found a way to ruin that too " .

" haven't you heard what I said , GET OUT " I said to Alex and he flinched again , but this time he took his jacket from where he was sitting , and walked to the door , but turned around before he leaves .

" I love you Angela , and welcome back " he said then stormed out of the door shutting it behind him .

Niall and sky his girlfriend ran after him .
Now I was in the room with Louis and Elenor , Liam and sally , and Emma and harry .

Lots of love in the room , and I was boiling inside , maybe I'm just jealous .

" angel-" sally started .

" ALL OF YOU , GET OUT , I DON'T WANNA SEE ANYONE , LEAVE " I shouted and harry sighed and pulled Emma out with him .

Liam looked at the floor then at sally and pulled her out , along with Louis and Elenor .

Leaving me in the room alone , I started crying my heart out .

I lost everything now .

I lost everything the moment I lost him , now I see why I loved that song ' half a heart ' .

I feel half a heart without him .

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Yaaaaaay , finally this one is over .

You should really focus on reading the next few chapters , this is going to be so interesting .

Lots of bad and good things are going to happen .

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Manar's out .