Forever?||Phan||

Coming and going|Forever?|

#5

~Phil's POV~

I woke up to see Dan had gone, as I got a new text message from my secret admirer. Great.

Hey Philly! Good morning ily!! xx

Eugh. Don't ever call me 'Philly' again please >.<

Whatever you say..... Philly xx

Shuddup already and bye, I gtg hit the showers. Talk to you later.

Okay, bye then... xx

With that, Phil got undressed and stared at myself in the mirror. I felt something when I did. Disgusted.

I was disgusting. Inside and out.

At this very moment, I felt like crying. Then I realized that Dan could come walking in the Hotel door at any moment, and hear me again. So instead of thinking anymore, I hopped into the shower. I felt the warm, hot water run across my skin and scars. God, this felt so good and soothing.

The shower was one of my only escapes from reality. I could think whatever I wanted too when I was in their.

~Dan's POV~ (A couple minutes L8er)

I walked back inside the Hotel door, and I saw everything in the right place, except for Phil. I wanted to know what he was up to. From yesterday, I could see that Phil was sad, and he could be crying again for all I know. Maybe even doing something worse....

"Phil!" I yelled over and over again.

"PHIIIL" I yelled once more before I heard a door open. The bathroom. Of course! I was just so stupid sometimes...

"What, Dan?" He asked in only a towel. Oh, how I wish he could have the towel off. Stop it Dan! For your sake of sanity.

"I-um-you-um" I managed to get out while looking up and down at his body. He was really cute. I couldn't stop myself from looking at him.

"What's that? I can't hear you correctly. Also, please stop staring at me like that, it's getting creepy" Phil said, annoyed. I really was just some annoying kid to him, wasn't I?

"I was um just uhh. Worried. I hadn't known where you've gone and umm. Yeah" I said. Putting my eyes on a painting on the wall trying to avoid eye contact. Why did I have to be so awkward around this man? He probably thought I was some weirdo. I am when I'm with him.

"Mmph, like you care about me" he muttered and rolled his eyes. He always does that. It's cute. But little did I know, was that I was about to make a mistake.

"What do you fucking mean? Of course I care about you, Phil!" I said more harsh than I meant it to be.

Phil backed away and what he said made me regret everything I've done to him in the past and present, and if I didn't grow a pear soon, the future.

"P-please don't hurt me! I swear I didn't mean to anger you!" He whispered loud enough for me to hear while I could see a few tears flow from his face. Why do I have to be such an asshole? Especially toward him? He's one of the only people I care about.

"O-oh Phil. I erm, didn't mean to frighten you... I uh-um need to, ya know, go" I said, and grabbed my stuff and walked out the room to get breakfast. I always ran away from him. Always. I just came back and I was leaving again. Great.

~Phil's POV~

He left me all alone. Again. But what did I care? I was used to people coming and leaving. Why did I care so much? Probably cause him and I had so much memories. But, Phil. Those days are over now. No more "Dan & Phil". Just "Dan Howell" and "Who's that guy?". But I was used to it. At least I had a couple friends... That are gonna leave me like anybody else that's ever been in my life. All I have to do is try not screw up. But that'll be very hard, considering I'm, well, me.

I was hungry but remembered that I wasn't allowed to eat cause I'm already way too fat. So instead I watched Death Note from the 1st season. I had nothing else to do anyways. Not like my friends would want to talk to me anyways.

~Dan's POV~

I called my old friend, Felix that lives not too far away from where I was right now. We've been something anybody else would call "Friends with Benefits", but I didn't bother giving it a title.

"Hey Felix. You remember that old Hotel we used to use? I kinda need some help. Just to take my head off things for awhile."

A/N

I'm not doing authors note anymore unless I need to tell you guys something (sorry, that sounded really rude). Anyways, sorry this is really short but just finished as I go outside a lot and stuff and my friends need help so byye

* Gives you a turtle with supplies you need so you can have fun with it*