Until I Found You

First Day Of The New Life

I had a dream.
It was a dream instead of a nightmare like I usually have.
I had a dream that I wish didn't end.
I had a dream that made me question if waking up in the morning is really worth it.
I had dream that I was free. It was just me and Bill against the world. We ran away together and started our life. We were happy together. I was happy with him...and somehow he was happy with me. It felt like everything was too good to be true and moving too fast, so fast it almost made my head spin.

I woke up in a pair of arms. I looked up and saw Bill's peaceful sleeping face. So it wasn't dream, I'm really here with Bill, we have our own house in a place that nobody knows or comes to. I'm happy with him but is he happy with me? He confessed his feelings for me last night but what if it was a lie? It seems a little too quick to have feelings for me like this. I don't want to think that he'd lie to me like that, but it could be possible, he is still a demon after all. But then again I feel guilty for thinking these thoughts.

Bill suddenly started squirming a little bit. I look up at him and saw his eyebrows furrowed and his lips in a thin line. What's wrong with him? He started mumbling but what he was mumbling so quietly I can't really hear what he's saying at all. I listened closely. "I'm sorry Pinetree" he whispered which really caught my attention. "I love you I swear I've changed" I wish I could see his dreams, now I'm very curious.

Suddenly Bill gripped me tightly and kept mumbling "I'm sorry" and "I promise" I really wanna know what's going on. I sat up and stared at him, his face still looked sad. I gently caressed his cheek and combed my fingers through his hair. Bill's face softened and he let out and deep breath. I stared at him for a moment, his lips looked tempting honestly. Should I take the risk? Hmm? I don't know...I sighed and leaned in and kissed him. His lips were warm and soft against mine. I raised my hand up and held his cheek. It felt wrong kissing him while he's asleep, but I can't stop.

I kissed him once more and went to pull away but then I felt him kissing back. I quickly pulled away. "Bill! I-I'm sorry, I didn't know-" I paused and looked at him. He was looking up at me with tears in his eyes. "Bill? Why are you crying?" I asked worriedly. "I'm sorry Pinetree" his voice cracked. "Sorry? Sorry for what?" I grabbed Bill's face and held it in my hands, that must of triggered something because his eyes widened and he broke down in tears. And that's when my heart shattered, again. I pulled him into my embrace and made sure to hold him close, he held me and comforted me for my breakdown it's only fair I do it for him right? He gripped my arms tightly and pressed himself against me. "I'm sorry for everything, for when I took over your body, for using you, for trying to take over the world, for trying to kill you and your family" Bill looked up at me "I'm sorry for making you take care of my because I have such little knowledge of humans...I shouldn't expect such kindess from you after everything I've done" Bill cried, his tears going through my shirt, I didn't mind though.

I'm curious to what really triggered all this. "Bill, what started this all of a sudden?" I asked in a soft tone and rubbed his back comfortingly. Bill took a deep breath and buried his face in my chest. "I had a bad dream...I had a dream your family caught me and chained me up..you guys tortured me, well you were just watching, you looked at me with your eyes so full of hate" he clenched his hand into a fist around my shirt. "You hated me Pinetree" he wiped his eyes but the tears kept flowing. "You said you hated me, you said I deserved the torture that I was going through" Then he looked up at me "but what hurts the most is that you were right, I kept apologizing and trying to tell you how much I loved you but it didn't work and you refused to listen...but you were right, I did deserve to be tortured, I shouldn't be alive now but I'm here, and you're here with me when I don't deserve you" I was speechless, I don't know what to say, I just held him close to me. Bill sighed and tried to sit up but I held him. "Bill...you might have done some bad things, but that doesn't matter anymore. You're here now apologizing for what you've done, you're not the cruel demon you once were" I grabbed his chin and forced him to look at me. You changed Bill, I'm here for you and I swear I'll always love you" Bill stared for a moment before speaking. "You don't have to hold me anymore" he mumbled and tried sitting up, but once again I kept him from moving. "I want to, you held me through what I was going through, I'm going to do the same for you, please Bill just let me do this" I looked into his eyes, the tears were drying up and his eyes stared to get their glow back, I wiped the rest of his tears and kissed his forehead.