Escaping from reality

Part 26

Y/n's POV
He came in with a small box in his and sat beside.

Y/n:- "What's that??"

Jungkook:- "Your phone's sim card."

He is being uninterested.

Y/n:- "What happened?"

Jungkook:- "Nothing. Go bring your phone."

I picked the bag and handed it to him. He inserted the Sim card and gave it back to me.

Jungkook:- "Wanna have something?"

Y/n:- "We had our breakfast a few hours back."

Jungkook:- "C'mon let's go somewhere."

Y/n:- "No I'm really tired. I want to use my phone as I have it now."

I giggled. He smiled looking at me.

Jungkook:- "What you gonna watch?"

Y/n:- "Nothing. I'll listen to music."

Jungkook:- "I wanna know your choice too."

But his phone started ringing so he went outside. He came in again and told me that he's going for some kinda work and he'll be late.

I turned the music on and lied down on my bed. After a long time I was listening to music so it was pretty good to listen to it. I played one of my favorite songs it reminded me of someone I adored the most that time. And I still get hurt to remember all those harrowing memories.

I know I can never meet him but I still wish that I was with him even though I saw him making out with a girl with my own eyes but I still need him.

I tear rolled down my eyes. I don't want to cry but I was crying. I wanted to feel the same happiness again. I wanted to feel every moment spent with him again. But my dad,  he ruined everything like always. The time I spent with him was the best moment of my life even if it hurted me in the end. The way it all ended was unexpected but I was the one who said I don't wanna be friends with him anymore. He was not the one at fault. It was me. Like always the promises we made were nothing but some empty words.

He became my comfort place as it was the longest friendships I've ever had. That's what happens with me, people leave me. They find someone else who is always better than me. I'm a failure at everything.

Tears were streaming out rolling down my cheek. I was sobbing. Is it that difficult to find a person who can love me the same way I love them. Even my parents left me. They never loved me. But I loved them.

They were with Jungkook. He took them when he came to the basement. Where are they?

I stopped crying and was looking at the ceiling thinking about my parents. If they would have been like others my life would have been different. I would have lived a normal life. Only if it all was true.

I needed a friend who could stay with me when I needed them but no one was there. It was always me with myself. How can I be a failure at everything? Why can't I have a friend? But maybe it's me too cause when people get near me now I push them away, afraid they would leave me too. I don't want myself to break. I'm already broken and I don't want to add more to it. I've made this wall with a lot of effort and I don't want anyone one to break it.

I started using my phone to avoid thinking about the things that made me feel miserable. I don't want to think about all of this.

At night