𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙄 𝙙𝙞𝙙𝙣'𝙩 𝙨𝙖𝙮 ;

The Fionna to my Cake

November 9, 2022
23:41

Happy birthday wishy,

Happiest birthday. I hope you enjoyed your special day. I wish you nothing but the best and for you to succeed in life. 
Para akong tanga, noh? Dito kita binabati eh pwede naman na mag message na lang ako sayo.  I don't know. Maybe this one is my ego and maybe I need to write this because like you, I also need a closure and at the same time, I don't want to let you go but maybe I already did...

But let me tell you three things:

THANK YOU:

For everything you've done to me.
Thank you so much for all the memories that I will surely keep and consider as a treasure.
Thank you for the unexpected friendship.
Thank you for being there when no one really shows up, just you.
Thank you for tolerating my toxic and unbreathable attitude.
Thank you for raising my RED FUCKING FLAG even if you don't have to.
Thank you for being a supportive best friend every damn time.
Thank you for all the knowledge that you undoubtedly shared to me.
Thank you for staying no matter what happened.
Thank you for accepting me for who I am.
Thank you for being the best soul sister, even if I don't deserve you. 

Marami akong dapat ipagpa-salamat sayo. I won't be the person that I am today if it's not because of you. Di ko alam kung matatapos ko 'to or iiyak na lang ako. Pero sobrang THANK YOU. 
THANK YOU because you came into my life and it's very hard to discard everything that we have.

I'M VERY SORRY:

I'm very sorry for being a bad friend.
I'm sorry for all those times that I made you feel alone.
I'm sorry that I made you feel that you're not enough.
I'm very sorry that I became a bad friend.
I'm very sorry if you feel that I betrayed you.
I'm very sorry if I act so childish.
I'm very sorry if I made you feel that I don't want you to have a friend but believe me, that's what I'm actually trying to do from the very start. I'm introducing you to some of my friends because I don't want you to feel that I will leave you just because I have friends and maybe that's what I did and that's why I'm saying sorry.
I'm very sorry if I made you feel that you always have to choose me and I'm very sorry if I also made you feel that I'm not choosing you.
You're the only person I trust. You're the one who always got my back when I'm the one who's in trouble.
I'm very sorry for not being the one-call-away friend that you deserve. 
I'm very sorry for hurting you.
I'm very sorry if I made you feel all those terrible things in the past and even in this present.

I didn't intend to harm you because you're very important to me. Because you're my best friend. I'm so sorry for everything that I've done wrong to you. Hindi na mabibilang kung gaano karami yung masamang nagawa ko sayo or kung gaano kasakit yung mga naiparamdam ko sayo sa ilang taon ng pagka-kaibigan natin. Iniisip ko na lang na hindi talaga ako deserve maging kaibigan mo and you deserve so much more in this fucked up world. 

I LOVE YOU:

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I didn't even noticed that I'm hurting you.
I love you because you're my best friend.
I love you because of your wits and humor.
I love you because there's no dull and boring moments with you.
I love you because I always have you no matter what.
I love you because you still love me even if I'm dumb and reckless upon my actions.
I love you because you love me for who I am, and I love you for who you are.
I love you so much that I wish nothing but the best for you and for your life.
I love you so much and I'm happy that you chose to be happy even if I'm not with you.
I love you so much that I wish everything for you to be happy and successful.

Thank you for everything.

I'm very sorry for hurting you. 

I love you so much my one and only best friend.