MY TEACHER

08

The inside is even more extravagant. The design was everything. The colors complimented the modernist style furniture's so well.

I watched as walked over to the kitchen where there are buffets of food of every kind.

My mouth watered, I wondered if it tasted as good as it looked.

He took out two plates and began plating them

I walked over to where the drinks were and took a bottle of water.

"Who were you speaking on the phone with" he asked bringing over the plates to the counter. I sit on the stool looking down at the curry goat and rice and peas. I see he hasn't forgotten My favorite.

"Why are you bringing-" I started.

"Just answer me nuh" I was taken aback by his strong tone.

He pulled out one of the stool sitting infront me.

"I don't have to tell you who I was speaking with" I said then I heard him sighed. He must've come to realization that he doesn't tell me who or what I should talk with.

"It was my grandmother" I said deciding not to be stubborn, we started eating silently.

"Was that so hard to say" he said and I looked up at him, he's already looking at me.

"I'm just here to support you that's all, we-"

"Bullshit!" He said harshly which made me jumped a little. his jaw is tensed with furrowed brows.

"You want me just as much as I want you, you're just scared of what people would think " he said and my eyes widened. Astonished by his words I cleared my throat because I knew he was right.

"Tell me I'm lying" he knows he right.

"You don't know anything" I said in a defeated tone. he looked down nodding. As if he had came to conclusion with a thought.

"Cool finish eating so me can take yuh home then" he got up walking away. his food was barely eaten.

Sighing, I want to tell him yes, yes and yes. But I also know that my father would be very disappointed and I know he would punish me which is most likely be to not pay for my university fees. I don't know how my grandmother would feel honestly. I know it would be the end of me if it got to one of my aunts ears....just one. I could hear all the judgments they would pass in my head.

I suddenly lost my appetite and got up walking back outside.

I heard his laugh before I could even see him. Why can't he be this free and happy around me. Because you won't give the man a chance. My subconscious reminded me and she is right.

"I'm ready to leave" I said breaking him away from their conversation.

He nod and got up, he fist bump most of the guys and pushed Geo away who tried to hug him.

We got to the car and he opened the door for me, even though if the looks he was giving me could kill I'll be dead already.

He came in on the other side and turned the music on meaning he didn't want to have a conversation.

When we reached my stop I unbuckled my seatbelt and turned the music down.

"Christian I'm really sorry but I just can't" I told him hoping he'll understand.

"What ,you don't trust me?" he looked over at me and I sighed. How cam I trust someone I know nothing about?.

"C-Christian but I don't know you" I said with frustration clear in my tone.

"What do you want to know about me, I know everything about you" he said and of course, I would eat off his ears telling him all the ins and out of my life.

"yeah that's because I told you everything and the moment I ask you anything personal you shut me down" I retorted and he tapped his thumbs on the steering wheel.

"Okay ask me anything" he turned to look at me. A million questions came to my mind at once.

"Why do you cheat on your wife" I asked because I've wanted to aksed for a long time.

He was silent until I opened my mouth to say something but he beats me to it.

"I don't love her, I never did, it was an arrangement as you can tell by her accent, our parents are friends and her father did mines a favour so that's his way of returning it..me marrying her for citizenship, I was never committed to her. All 6 years. Then you..I don't know. And I never fucked any of my students if you are wondering" he finished. Everything he said gave me relief.

"Okay but what can she do..she said remember what I can do" I asked and his whole body tensed.

"She can't do anything..trust me" he said and it sounded like a promise more than reassurance. I know I'm not getting the truth but it doesn't matter anyways.

"What would my father thinks...he would not pay for my school fee if he ever finds out" I said strating to feel emotional because all I want is nothing more than to have him near me all the time.

"School fees, Hailey... I can pay that a hundred fucking times" he said but that wasn't it. I just didnt want to be a disappointment to him.

"Christian it's not even that, he won't accept that you're 8 fucking years older than me, he's going to think you probably want to use me...I don't know" I held my head because my head was starting to hurt.

"Hey calm down, stop overthinking this" I felt his hands on me and I immediately felt relaxed. What one touch can do.

"I'm not forcing you to be with me I'm just telling you my how I feel about you...I'm down if you're down, if not you can go live your life without me" he said and I started crying.

"You'll be going to UWI. you should be happy, you'll find....s-someone that would be perfect for your family" he said sarcastically and I rolled my eyes at him blatantly mocking me.

"Christian I'm sorry"

"No because I'm not ashamed to bring you around my people regardless of what they think... but it's always about fucking daddy, and family...what about you. huh!what about you Hailey" he shouted. He's really mad.

"I'm not ashamed of you" I told him and he gave me a look that tells me he didn't believe me.

"Anyways I have to get going" he said and I tried touching him but he push my hands away.

I stared at him and in that moment I think if I should just give it all up for him, and maybe I could let my father and ma knows and maybe they wouldn't even react the way I anticipate.

I got out his car that night and went straight in my house no turning back.

I cried the whole morning until I fell asleep.