Sebastain p.o.v. ******************** WHO THE FUCK DO HE THINK HE IS!!!!!!!! COMMANDING ME AND SHIT............ HE RUINED MY DAY AND THE GAME FOR ME WAS TOTALLY RUINED..... I AM SO OVER THIS. AND NOW I HAVE TO BE ALL ALONE IN OUR ROOM ON A SUTURDAY NIGHT AFTER A BIG WIN SULKING....... BECAUSE OF HIM! UGHHHHH I AM SO FRUSTRATED I TOLD HIM HOW I FELT ABOUT JAMIE THIS MORNING BUT HE STILL DOES WHATEVER.
HE IS SO INCONSIDERATE. STUPID DE'ANDRE........ I even sent my mom and siblings home becuase my mood was to shitty.
He is probaly out right now having fun...... most likely attending the party Levi is throwing at his home. But here I am in the corner of my room arguing with myself.... but can you blame me he got turned on by me and hugged me this morning.... how am I suppose to feel when he is up on some other person, he is playing with me obviosly. And i have let him.
But he has to be attracted to me, right? Running my hand through my head frustrated
I do not trust many poeple and he have not tried to do anything to me so I let him touch me in simple ways. I am not saying i like his touch. I do not know i trust him and it feel nice to trust someone who does not have my last name or is Eli.......... Maybe I am being a bit possessive, but Jamie clearly like De'Andre.
It bothers me and I do not like that it does and then I start acting shitty and I can not help it. I do not want to think about this anymore, I just want to forget everything and maybe even hang out with Victoria and Eli at the party if that means thinking about something else. I dont really do parties but what the hell. I send a quick message to Eli telling him I will meet him there and get of my bed to prepare myself. It is nothing like making your self feel and look good to highten your mood. I quickly go to the shower and spend a while and there thinking about what to wear and how I should style my hair.
Getting out I tie the towel arounf my waist and let my hair airdry so I can have more volume when I brush it. I then attack my closet pulling out everything and anything.... I wil catch his eye once I find my outfit I blush at how god I will look in it. Then I get ready putting on my clothes and styling my hair going with a side part with a volumous root. I look to die for , I cant help but bite my lip as I look in the mirror.
(Sebby Outift)
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After checking myself out a little more I head to my car. I can not help but feel anxious going to this party.... as I get to my car I seriously start to think about turning around and just going to sleep.
"No Sebastian you are an adult, it is just a party with people I see everyday, plus you will not stay to long into the night" I say giving myself a pep talk as I get into my car.
I hestantly put the key in the ignition and start my car putting in the directions to Levi house. "I mean i might as well go I already told Elijah I would be ther so........ I just put in the directions to Levi house and with every red light my stomach drops to the point where you think you have to poop.
