More than this (Rachel Daly)

Everythings ruined

*Hannah POV*

I looked everywhere for Rach and I cant find her anywhere, she's not answering my texts or calls so I decide to just go back to our room.

Han- hey Mill

Millie- did you find Rach?

Han- no, shes not answering my texts or calls either.

Millie- let me try her.

*2 minutes later*

Millie- shes coming up here

Han- so she knows I was calling her then and probably saw my texts. She's ignoring me. Is there any point?

Millie- yes hannah, of course there's a point. I thought you liked her?

Han- *rach listening by the door* of course I like her Mill but I just think I've messed everything up. If I've messed it all up whats the point in trying to fix it. I've shown today that I do snap and i can't control it. Nobody here has seen that side to me before because etheyve never had a reason to but I can't control my temper Millie and what if it happens again and I say something I don't mean towards Rach and then it's definitely over between us. I don't know what I'm capable of doing and I don't want it to affect our relationship. Maybe it's for the best if we do stay friends. I don't know

Millie- don't you think you should talk to her about it first?

Rach- well it would've been nice to be consulted about what's going on in our friendship

Hannah- *looks up, surprised* Rach I'm so sorry

Rach- it's fine. It was just unexpected. I didn't know you were so upset

Hannah- yeah neither did I

Rach- *laughs* if you want to just be friends then that's fine but to be honest I would like it if we were more than that, I really like you Hannah but I get it if you don't want it or you don't feel-

*phone rings*

Hannah- it's Jonah, I'm so sorry Rach I have to get this

Rach- no problem

Hannah- *on the phone* what you got for me?... you're doing what? Right now? No you can't, wait for me, we will do it together. I don't care Jo you shouldn't be doing this on your own. Okay let me know how it goes. Okay bye. *ends call* I've got to find Mary. Sorry

Rach- oh okay..

I run around frantically trying to find Mary.

Mary- woah, why you in such a rush?

Han- you.. I need you

Mary- okay Han, sit down and breathe

Han- *catches breath* that text you saw earlier.. from Alice

Mary- yeah

Han- Alice is my sister

Mary- you never mentioned a sis-

Han- we don't talk anymore. She moved out of the country 5 years ago and never told us and hasn't spoken to us since. We never thought we'd hear from her again so we just forgot about her. That sounds bad. We didn't forget but we just kind of don't class her as a sister anymore

Mary- no it doesn't sound bad it's fine, it makes sense. If my family did that I would do the same. So why now is she messaging you?

Han- I don't know. Jonah just called me to say that he's going to meet her to see what she wants. I told him not to and that he should wait for me but he said no because I would take too long to get to him

Mary- what does she actually want that you know of?

Han- to come back into our lives. But I dont want to know her. I don't even know how she thinks its acceptable

Mary- who else knows about this?

Han- nobody, not even Rach or Mill.

Mary- are you going to tell them?

Han- not yet. I'm still trying to fix things with Rach. She walked in on me telling Millie that I think we should just be friends because of my temper. I think I'm just making things worse to be honest

Mary- hey no you're not. If she cant accept all parts of you then she doesnt deserve you

Han- I don't deserve you Mary

Mary- you absolutely do. I love you girl, ill always have your back

Han- I love you too girly

Mary- make sure you keep me updated with Alice

Han- I will definitely

Mary- no go get your girl

Han- okay byeee

I run back to our room, hoping that Rach is still in there. She is, Millie isn't thank god.

Han- I'm so glad you're still here

Rach- why? You haven't wanted to know me all day

Han- I'm sorry I've just got so much going on right now

Rach- there's no excuse Han, I've made it quite clear that I will support you through anything and I get that there are some things you don't want to tell me but do you know how I feel when you feel like you can't tell me but you can go tell someone else

Han- it's not that I can't tell you Rach. You don't need to be bothered by this right now. I don't even know what's going on with it myself

Rach- that's fine but you could have just explained that to me

Han- I know I'm sorry. I don't think sometimes

Rach- yeah you don't. *gets up* and you know what if you really don't trust me that much why go through all this with me

Han- all what?

Rach- all the flirting and cuddling and even inviting me to your brothers wedding

Han- I meant all of that and I do trust you

Rach- come back to me when you've made your mind up *walks out*

Han- *sits on the bed, defeated*

Everythings ruined. Nothing else matters now. Alice comes back into our life and I havent even seen her yet and somehow she's managed to worm her way into ruining everything I care about

I shouldnt have let it happen but this is the influence that she has on me and Jo. I hate it. I just hope he hasn't done the same thing. She was always the toxic one of the siblings and she always got us to be our worst versions of ourselves. I don't know how she does it. She just makes me so angry all the time.