More than this (Rachel Daly)

i will not be your rebound

*hannah pov*

Jess- look Hannah i know youre hurt and so im going to give you some space because you cant move on that quick.

Hannah- but i love you Jess

Jess- hannah no. you need to get over rach first. i will not be your rebound *walks away*

Hannah- what so that's it? You're just going to walk away?

Jess- hannah what do you expect me to do? You're going through a break up, you're hurting and you need time

Hannah- but I don't want time Jess. I want you. Why is that so hard to believe?

Jess- because you just broke up with your girlfriend Hannah!

Hannah- EX- girlfriend and why does that matter

Jess- look just get over her first. If you still think you want me after that then we'll figure it out okay?

Hannah- whatever Jess. I can't be around you right now *walks out*

Jess- typical. Goes from wanting me one minute to not wanting me the next *rolls eyes*

I don't get why she's being like this. Yes. I just broke up with Rach but that doesn't mean I don't want to be with her.

I don't know where to go. I don't know who to turn to. I can't go back in there. I have nowhere to go

I go out to the pitch and do what I do best. I run.

It's been about half an hour and I cant run anymore. I fall to the ground and let it all out.

I feel two arms wrap around me. I don't need to look up to know who it is. But I don't know why she's comforting me. After everything.

?- it's okay Han, I've got you. Let it out

Hannah- I just don't know what to do I've let everyone down and now I have nowhere to go

?- let's go back to my room, get you warmed up. Its freezing out here.

We get back to the room, one of the girls goes and gets me a hot drink and a blanket. I'm still crying. I don't know how to stop. It's like everything I've been feeling for the past 2 weeks has caught up with me.

Rach- ill be here when you're ready to talk, I'm not going anywhere

Hannah- After everything I've done. Why would you help me out there? On the pitch. You should have just left me

Rach- no Hannah. I would never just leave you. I care about you

Hannah- I'm really sorry Rach. For everything

Rach- no listen to me. It doesn't matter. The only thing that matters right now is that you're okay. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now

Hannah- it doesn't matter

Rach- no hannah it does matter

Hannah- I don't want to talk about it

Rach- that's okay hannah. I'm here when you do

Hannah- I'm sorry rach. Everything that happened.. it shouldn't have. I should have told you

Rach- listen. It's not your fault

Hannah- but it is

*alessia walks in*

Rach- saved by the bell

Hannah- thanks Less

Alessia- let me know if there's anything I can do

Hannah- I will

Rach- thanks Less. *to hannah* how about you drink this then get some sleep. I'll see if one of the girls will let me bunk with them

Hannah- can you stay? Please

Rach- are you sure?

Hannah- please Rach?

Rach- yeah Hannah. Of course I'll stay

*Jess POV*

I think I messed everything up. I have so many feelings for this girl and I've just ruined it all. Just like that

What have I done?

If she really feels the same, she'll take the time and she'll tell me, eventually, right?

I need to know where she is. Its 1 in the morning and she hasn't come back. I need to know that she's safe. I text the group chat with all the girls to see if anyone knows where she is

*groupchat*

Jess- hey, does anyone know where Hannah is? She left a while ago and hasn't come back. I'm getting worried x

Ella- I haven't seen her, is everything okay?

Leah- haven't seen her, best place to try is Mille @millie ? Xx

Millie- yeah she's here, don't worry Jess. She's with Rach at the moment. She's safe, she's sleeping xx

*end of messages*

Great. She's with her ex girlfriend. Maybe I was right to shut her down. Even though I didn't want to. She ran straight back to her ex. Now I don't know what to do

*next morning*

I couldn't sleep last night. I was up all night thinking about how she ran straight back to her ex. I don't know where that puts me and her or where that puts her and Rach. It got to about 10 and she walked in. She didn't look at me. Didn't say a word. She just got her stuff and went in the shower.

She's just got out the shower so I'm going to take the chance to talk to her

Jess- hannah can we talk?

Hannah- what is there to talk about?

Jess- how about the fact that last night you said you wanted me then when I said you needed time you ran straight back to her

Hannah- okay first of all, she has a name. Second of all I didnt run to her. I went to the pitch and started running. When I broke down on the pitch she was there. You weren't!

Jess- I was giving you space. If you didn't read the chat I actually said I was worried about you!

Hannah- yeah at 1AM Jess!

Jess- I was waiting for you, you know. Waiting for you to come back

Hannah- and yet you didn't leave to come and find me

Jess- hannah I don't want to argue with you right now

Hannah- I could have been anywhere Jess. And you didn't bother to come find me

Jess- I was waiting for you to come back

Hannah- well I didnt come back

Jess- han please, I really don't want to argue

Hannah- well don't then! I'm done Jess. Done

And with that she walks out again. I'm getting used to her walking out to be honest. I shouldn't be but I am. I don't know what to do. I don't know whether to follow her or to give her space. She doesn't want me to follow her and she doesn't want me to just let her walk. So what does she want me to do?

I don't understand this girl.

I'm trying here Hannah. Why won't you just let me in? I don't know what else to do. I don't know what I can do. How do I tell the girl that I've been in love with for years that I do love her but I don't want to be with her right now.