Who Would've Known ; Jakehoon

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Jake's POV 

It's been a week of avoiding the group because in the end, I couldn't just act dumb so I just ran away from all of them. my knees hurt and so does my head because I'm so close to having a migraine, why is it so awkward to run?!?!?!

(The Week)

"Jake Hyung!!" 

I turned and I see Niki, Jung-won, and Sunoo walking my way. OH NO!! I'M DOOMED!!! 

no, I can't stay here. so I ran until I got to the school's parking lot. 

But let me tell you that wasn't all...

When I was at my locker suddenly I heard from behind me,

"Jake"

AHHHHHH!!!! It's HEESEUNG HYUNG!!!

"I know you're avoiding-"

"ahhhh!!!!" I scram to not hear him as I ran away. This wasn't a good plan but it was my only way of coping. 

But the worst was just yesterday.....

I was walking slowly around the almost empty hallway during lunch on the lookout for any of them. So far so good, I loosened my stiff body a bit after feeling it was safe enough. 

But I spoke too soon!!!

"Jake"

eh?!?! Am I hearing voices now because of how paranoid I am?!?!?!

I turned slowly to face Sunghoon right in front of me?!?!?! and with Heeseung and Jay right next to him?!?! My eye widened like crazy, so I quickly turned only to find out that Sunoo!! Jung-won!! and Niki was there!!! AHHHH!!!

I kept looking both sides where do I go now I was doomed this time. Wait! Pause! I'm not ready to get caught this easily. How do girls usually get outside of these situations where a whole friend group surrounds her for only one to confess, huh?!?! Think Jake, Think Jake!!!

Looks like my only option is to go back to my soccer days. Come on Jake get yourself in the right mind so we can get out of here!! Fighting!!

"AHHH" I scream as I pushed all of them and then ran off, "I'M SORRY!!!!!"

Now back to my current state...

I'm currently even more ready to die what was it that I did to have started all of this? 

I am frowning the whole way to school because I have a feeling I will be trapped for good this time. prepare yourself jake!! oh no no no no...

I tried turning without looking suspicious but there is no use, we have to go to school. I'm not about to have an absence because of this. I continued walking and got into campus with no disturbance. Only to find out my first period was canceled, well that's just great. So now I'm just standing in front of the door like an idiot. Damn Jake, why are you letting all this get to you? why all of a sudden do I feel so driven by my emotions? It's ruining everything. I sighed just a bit too loud because...

"Are you okay jake?"

"huh? oh, Stacy yea I'm fine" I answered clearing my throat.

Stacy- "I've been meaning to ask you for help on an assignment but you've been disappearing as soon as class ends," she said.

"Oh, yea sorry about that I've just had things I wanted to do and didn't want to get to my next classes late. But umm what do you need help with?"

Stacy- "right, about that it was my friend in but it's the assignment that the math teacher handed to us last week," she said as she searched her backpack.

"oh uh I already turned mine in so I can't give you the answer but I'll help you and your friend with as much as I can," I said as I looked over to see which assignment it was. It was quite difficult and I barely remember anything. How am I supposed to help her? "where's your friend by the way?"

Stacy- "oh yea, we got the message that first period would be canceled so we're gonna work on assignments in the library. Would you mind going to the library or would you prefer a different time? whenever you're not busy is fine."

"Oh okay that's fine I don't have anything to do now that class is out."

Stacy- "That's great come on, let's go!!" 

so I followed her the whole way to the library- eh why is it so dark in here? wait a minute?

the lights turned on and once again Sunghoon was there facing me it's giving me flashbacks to that night, oh god. 

Stacy- "I'm so sorry Jake but I do need help bye!!"

"Stac- wait please," I said mumbling the last part.  I was about to turn and try to open the door only to find out it was locked from the outside. Just how did they get the librarian to agree to all of this? 

"Jake"

"yes?"

"would you listen to me this time?"

I turned to the doors once more. Well what else could I do, I'm not about to sit in a corner and cover my ears until he gives up. Although it does sound tempting. So I just nodded.

He cleared his throat before starting, "Jake that night what were you trying to say to me? Is there a chance you feel the same? If it's like that I need you to tell me, we don't have to be more than friends but it's killing me seeing you running away and hiding from me. Just, what are you trying to do to me? You know how I feel, why don't you acknowledge it? I'm not asking you to accept them like that but I need to make sure you accept it just in case you feel the same. I want you to feel secure with me and our feelings."

The silence was killing me and it hadn't been that long but I couldn't take it. It was just me and him.  will it be okay to finally say it? Jungwon once said it's best to be straightforward so it doesn't cause more trouble. And Sunoo said having crushes and feeling that attachment is special if with the right person. I don't understand it at all but could Sunghoon be that person?

If I accept his feeling as I did back then, will he end up hurt too? Because of me? He said I should feel secure about these feelings, I can't deny them but accepting them will only lead to more. It will only be more trouble, it doesn't even have to do with being in a  relationship but all the factors and the attachments. Will this be okay?

"Sunghoon-ah... I like you too and I accept your feelings. That night I wanted to tell you that but I couldn't after what had happened I couldn't do that to you. and this whole thing I don't understand it but if our feelings are the same then it should be okay, right?" 

Sunghoon was frozen in his spot when I looked up. Did I not say it correctly? 

But he suddenly came closer holding my face. "Jake are you sure about this? I heard you right, right?" I nodded, "then of course it'll be okay, and even if it isn't I'll be here and so will you. we'll be together anything can become okay for us as long as I have you." he smiled wider than I've ever seen before.

"Thank you, Jake, please don't run from me anymore."

"I won't. I'm sorry." 

This time I won't run and I won't cause him pain. I have to promise that to myself. This has to be different, it has to end differently, it's the only way.

Hello everyone I'm trying to start writing frequently again so the chapters might not be as long as the chapters before but I'll make sure to keep the length pretty long. Also, I wanna thank all of you for supporting this book of mine. I can't believe the views for this book are almost 3k. Thank you again so much, I'll make sure to continue this book for all of you to keep enjoying!!!

11/15/22