Part 2 of Rei's Conversation Partner

Journal Entries

I've never written in a journal before, so I think this is going to be something new and fun. 

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I got a quirk not too long ago. Purple eyes that shine so pretty in the sun when ever I use it... But I can't use it for too long. If I do, it makes me feel sick, and my head starts to hurt.

I got my quirk a while ago, its just like my dad's!
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My mom doesn't know that I know who my father is..., Though I guess she'll know once she gets this! 

My quirk is similar to my dad's, it's one that helps me look into the future. I could potentially change things that happen in the future, but..., if I did that, then the future that I've seen won't come true. Everything could change, I don't want that to happen.

But that's ok. I can play with it all I want, because I'm not going to be alive for too long anyway.
Even if I play around with it, it won't change anything just as long as I die in the end. From the disease anyway. 

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Mom's been really stressed, I'm worried about her, I'm not allowed to go outside too much anymore, I don't really mind much since I can spend a lot of time with her, but I do miss my friends.

Mama and the doctors keep telling me that they can't find anything. Mama's gone through a lot. You can even see how stressed she is on her face now... I think it's time I go to the hospital now... If I stay with Mama too long, I'm worried she won't be able to handle it...

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Mama took me to the doctor, I told him that I was going to die... He didn't believe me, but for some reason he started doing all kinds of tests. I was worried that Mama wouldn't be able to afford it. But he didn't charge Mama... 

The doctor was different this time around. In my other future, the doctor didn't run too many tests, he only sent me over to the other doctors since he couldn't find anything. This time around, he seemed worried... 

I wonder if it was something I said?

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I'm still not allowed out too much, I've noticed a few changes from the disease too, mama's been too worried to notice, not only that since I'm not allowed outside anymore it probably looks normal to her. My skin's a lot paler then it should be, my eyes were one thing, but I got fairly tanned skin from my dad's side, I wonder how mama hasn't noticed it yet.

Though the pale skin was sort of a blessing, I'm allowed outside now! I can go out and play in the backyard freely. Of course I'm still not allowed near others since mama doesn't want others thinking I'm crazy...

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Tomorrows finally almost here! My appointment at the big hospital is coming, I'll finally get to meet with doctor Hato! He's not the nicest man out there, and because of me he ends up losing his job in the future..., but in the end he still helps me get to where I need to be!

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The days finally here, I get to meet my doctor! He'll end mama's worries and I'll be sent to that mental hospital. I can't wait!

Something went a little different from how it was meant to go. I met a very nice doctor today. I'm thinking it's because Doctor Takashi was more worried then he was in the other future..., I don't understand why though...

He wanted to help me. I figured he'd be someone nice to talk to every once in a while at the mental institute. I wonder if he ever really could discover what is wrong with me?

Oh well, there's no point in wondering something like that. My fate is to die and advance discoveries on more illnesses like my own..., but..., Dr. Yuri-san sure was nice...

He seemed to realize that I knew something I shouldn't, especially when I had him call in Dr. Hato instead of him.

Dr. Hato's not the nicest man out there, in fact not a lot of people like him, but in her book she owes him quite a bit. Even though because of her he ends up losing his job...

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Finally! Dr. Hato returned with my results!

Mama seemed a little off as she listened to him, like she'd done something wrong, but in the end it still got me to where I need to be. Dr. Yuri wouldn't take his eyes off of me. It was like he knew something, which honestly would make sense considering what I told him...

Whatever, now that I'm being sent away there's nothing that he can do!

I did have a small conversation with Dr. Yuri, he's really nice! He wants to help me, but he doesn't know how, especially since I refused him doing more tests. I don't need mama being even more worried for me. He also realized how pale I was, as soon as he'd noticed it was written all over his face. I still refused to let him do anything about it though, so all he could do was worry...

I..., may or may not have told him about the first symptom that appeared, but it shouldn't matter much, since only knowing the first symptom won't really help much. Especially since my disease is one of the only diseases that cause pigment loss in your entire body.

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Mama cried all day, she barely moved from her spot on the sofa..., I feel kind of bad now...

But I can't tell her that I'm not crazy, cause if I do, she might either think that I am, or she'll try and stop me from being placed in the hospital...

I don't like hearing mama cry though..., it's something I've never liked, not even when I was younger. 

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It's already been three days since my hospital visit, mama's still having a hard time keeping it together. Tomorrow I'll be moved to the mental hospital..., I'm not too sure I can spend anymore time in the house with mama crying all the time..., it makes my heart hurt...

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