Part 2 of Rei's Conversation Partner

Journal Entries

Finally! After constantly bugging Dr. Yuri and him talking things through with other doctors, I'm finally allowed to go see her! I've been waiting for quite some time now. Writing in the journal with nothing going on in your life is difficult, I don't know how people do this every day...

Dr. Yuri and another doctor brought me to the doors of the garden, it's already been quite some time since I've looked into the future, so the garden is a bit difficult to remember, but Rei-san's smile still sits idly in my mind, I can't help but fawn over that beautiful woman. 

Her hair is similar to mine once my symptoms get worse, but she looks a lot more healthy then I do when I'm like that.

The doctors opened the door to the garden and there she was, her beautiful white hair flowing slightly in the wind, there was something in her hands though. A boy I'd never seen in the other future. It was intriguing. I've heard of him before, but only a couple mentions of his name. His face was similar to Rei-san's. He had split colored hair, it was like something you'd see in a movie. 

His eyes were what caught my attention though. They were strange yet beautiful, a scar on his face caught my attention too..., it must of hurt a lot, but at the same time it looked really cool as it matched his sharp looking eyes. The pretty blue stuck out against the reddened skin. 

Everything about him was really enchanting, it's too bad I never got to meet him in the other future...

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We sat in the garden for a while, for the most part it was pretty quiet, only enjoying each other's presence, I didn't really mind it, she was quite the healing person, even if others don't believe it.

Rei-san asked me how long I'd been in the hospital, as I thought about it I was surprised that it'd already been almost a month. I really didn't write much in the Journal, especially when nothing really happened. 

Rei-san was surprised too, when I told her about how long I'd been there, I realized how early I'd been able to see her, but away from that, I told her why I was here. Dr. Yuri seemed a bit nervous, but Rei-san's the only one that would understand. Whether she thinks I'm crazy or not.

Sadly right after I told Rei-san why I was there, Yuri-san wanted me to go back inside. Can't make my pale skin look strange by being outside for too long. To be honest though, it really didn't matter much, even if the other doctors noticed something off, they wouldn't be able to do anything about it since the hospital has made it clear that I'm not right in the head.

As soon as we entered the building, I heard a surprising fact. My hair was already changing, it's happening a lot faster then it did in the other future..., I wonder why it's going so fast... Dr. Yuri san asked to help me once again, but this time I must have made it clear, there is no cure for me. I will die, no matter what he tries...

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A few days passed since then..., Dr. Yuri san cried that night, it hurt as I watched him cry when he thought I was asleep. I didn't notice how close we'd gotten, it's strange, he's like a big brother? 

More like an angel honestly..., he was never meant to enter my story. I'm glad that he's here, I seem to talk about that a lot. I wonder why he entered my story to begin with, even if Dr. Takashi was worried, Dr. Yuri shouldn't have easily entered my story...

It's so complicated..., but, I don't really want to think about the loneliness I'd have experienced without him...

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Time's been going by really fast, I thought at first that it'd still go by slowly like it did in the first month..., but with everything changing, time seems to fly by really fast. I've realized that when I go to sleep, Dr. Yuri san's been crawling into bed with me. I'm worried that he'll have a hard time when I go, he's like family now. It's like I'm worrying mama all over again... I don't like worrying him, but he's also the only one that knows what's going on with me...

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Dr. Yuri asked me a question today, it made me think back to when I first got here. He asked why I didn't share why I was in the hospital with others. I remember thinking about that before entering the hospital too. I told him simply that I didn't want others getting hurt because I shared my story. That would be wrong of me, especially knowing that someone would die because I shared it.

Another change in my future, it could also be the reason why my symptoms are increasing so fast.

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It's already been a couple months now..., it's strange to think about..., I'm almost there..., it's kind of scary now that I think about it. I don't like bringing this up much, in fact even around Dr. Yuri I tend to pretend I'm ok with everything. Telling Dr. Yuri that I'm scared, I'm worried that it'll hurt even more.

I don't like seeing him cry, he's become family after all. Watching him cry hurts, I don't like it at all, so I've been pretending as best I can around him. Even when I'm speaking honestly to him. I always act like everything's fine. Though he's definitely picked up on it...

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My hairs been fading more and more, the color of white is really pretty, but at the same time it's scary. It tells me that my time is almost here..., I don't want to go yet, I was supposed to have more time...

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Rei-san's been a bit more friendly to me recently, I'm wondering if she realized what's happening to me, it makes sense considering others have noticed it too...

Though, I can't help but like the attention that Rei-san gives me. I'm not really lonely anymore. I never really was since Yuri-san's always with me, but knowing Rei-san even more then in the other future, it's nice...

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It's already been a while since I've written in here again. I feel bad for not being able to leave anything but this behind, I can't really think of anything else though...

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