From Tokyo with Love

Chapter 30 - Confession

~ Kazumi P.O.V ~

It's been few days from our last meeting at the bakery. I text his old number but I didn't get any answer. Did he already change his number? I really need to meet him and explain why I left. I decided to tell him the reason why I left, he has the right to know.

For this years, The memory of us that makes me can get through all the pain. I keep hoping, wishing, praying when I'm back, he still waiting for me like I do. I trace my finger on our picture. That's our last picture before I decided to left him and get through all treatment.

——- flash back ——

"Sorry Kazumi, but I have to tell you...you just have six months left."

I stoned, six months ? how will I tell him ? No, I have to stay positive. There must be a way to through this.

"how much is my chance if I do the surgery?"

"It's probably only 10%" My tears leaking from my eyes. I use my hand to wipe it and force a smile.

"I take it." I will take this chance even it's only 1%. I want to get better. I still want to be with him for much longer time. I promise myself I'll do anything to make him happy. I love him...so much till it's hurt.

"I'll arrange it with Dr. smith and will let you know the detail soon." I nodded to the doctor. After said thank you to him, I exited from his office and walk out.

My phone vibrated in my pocket, I let it vibrate until it down. I don't feel to talk for now. I know I'll break if I talk. I know it's him who called me.

I stop in front of the river and sit. Watching the water flow calmly. Is my decision is right for not telling him? I hate to see him worried. I love him, I just want to see him smile. I convince myself that this is for the best. It won't be long...maybe only a few months...I'll be back with healthier body...I promise...wait for me Ryuu.....

——- End of flash back ——-

I know I'm wrong about the timing. It wasn't as simple as I thought. so many treatment and test that I need to get through, there's time I feel so tired and want to give up, but imagine his face and remembering our time together it makes me up again.

At that time I meet Damon. He's one of Dr. Smith assistant. He help me to get through this. I feel glad I met Damon. He's like my brother that I never had. He always been there every time I cracked and be my strength. I do wish Ryuu doing the same thing like Damon. taking care of me like before.

"Hello, Kazumi...are you okay?" Suddenly Damon kneel in front of me and waving his hand in front of my face with concern. I look at him and smile, give him a nodded telling him that I'm okay.

"Sorry, I was lost in my thought." I tell him.

"You seems odd since we're back from the bakery. What happened ?" 

"Nothing...I was clumsy back there and I stained a girl dress with my drinks. I feel bad for her, I did give her my number, I hope I can make up her dress." Well, I'm not lying..I just not tell the whole story.

"Did she angry at you?" I shake my head.

"No, she didn't. That's why I feel so bad. I ruin her date though..." It sadden me when the memory flashing in my brain, showing how Ryuu treat her...

"Well then...It's not your day and her day then...I'm sure she'll be alright. If she didn't angry with you, I believe she didn't mind." Damon pat my head.

"Here, I made this for you..maybe it's not as good as the one from the bakery...but I hope this can brighten your day." He shove a hot chocolate mug to my hand and smile at me. 

"Thank you." I smile back at him, he grin to me. He stand up and sit beside me. Damon turn on the TV and flip some channel. He stop at some gossip news. 

"We spot Ryuu with the girl from his video clip. they look very close and happy together. Are they really together ? Ryuu known as the ice cold heart guy, he never smile and always seems don't care, but we found out that he's being gentleman to this girl and he flashing his smile to her. Well, who is this pretty girl that successfully melting the ice mountain? We'll find out soon. Back to the studio !" 

Suddenly my heart feels like being stabbed multiple times by nail, my stomach feels like being squeeze in washing machine, my head become light. The mug almost slip from my hand. The news just make it more real. Look at his face...He seems comfortable and happy with her. They seems in love with each other. Does he really moved on? I didn't realize a tear fell on my cheek.

"Kazumi...are you hurt? Is your stomach hurt again? Do you need your medicine?" I shake my head. Suddenly I can't hold my tears again. I start cry in silent. Damon grab my mug and put it on coffee table, then he pull me into his hug and rocking my body back and forth. His hand move up and down on my back try to calm me. He put his chin on my head. He keep silent and letting me cry. My sob become louder and at that moment, I cry all my heart out. All this feeling that's been bottled up since I met him again, I let it out.

After don't know how many minutes I cried, finally I calm down. Damon keep hugging me tight and keep rocking our body. I move a little, he pull a little from the hug only to wipe my tears, the he pull me again. I rest my head on his shoulder.

"Do you feel better?" He speak softly. I don't know what I feel...my heart still hurt though...

"Kazumi, I'll always here...I'm not going anywhere...please talk to me...anything...tell me what make you sad, and I'll try my best to make it better...I know you still love him...But I want you to know...please, give me a chance...share me a little place in your heart...even it's only a chunk..." 

I'm freeze from his sudden confessed. 

"You don't have to answer me now...but please just consider it?" He smile weakly to me while he wipe my tears again and tug my strained hair on my ear. He pull me closer to give me a kiss on my head. I don't know if I can look at him in different way...as he said, I'm still in love with Ryuu...so much..I never thinking about someone else, beside I always thought that Damon is like my brother...

"Do you want to take some rest?" He ask me, I just nodded weakly. He suddenly lift me in bridal style and bring me to my room. He put me on my bed, cover me with my summer blanket. I close my tired eyes. I hear his soft voice mumble to me before I finally drift to sleep.

"Get some rest...I'll be here watching you..." 

~ Damon P.O.V ~

I'm watching her breathing soft and steady. He cheek stained with her tears. It does break my heart seeing her cried like that.I know she always love that guy. She keep try to be strong for him...She want to come back to him as a strong girl and healthy. I remember she always smile so bright when she look at their picture in her phone. I admit I jealous, but I didn't show it to her.

I don't know what makes me confess to her just now, but I just can't hold it longer. Somehow I need to tell her...he's not the only man on earth...she still can have me to love her...I want her to look at me the same way like she look at him...for now, I have to be satisfied with what we have. I hope she can accept me and give me a chance to show her my love. I will not let her down and cry like this...I will make her happy. I will be there in sickness or in health, hell I want to marry her. But if she want to pursue that guy, then I'll help her...as long she happy, I'll be okay.

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A/N : Awwwww....Damon soooo sweettttttt...I wonder if there's any guy like him...I know I made this character...but I can't help it...I dream there's a guy who love me no matterwhat. Isn't it every girl's dream being loved unconditionally by someone ?

Whose in team KazumixDamon ? or you still team KazumixRyuu ?