warmth | l.mh x h.js

0.6

"jisung?" minho mumbled, as he tapped the bed around him. it felt empty and cold.

"ji-jisung?" he started getting more frantic.

"p-please don't take him away too!" he mumbled as he looked around his room with wide eyes.

no jisung in sight. he could still smell a faint lavender scent though so he knew that yesterday wasn't just a dream.

"sungie?" he ran to the bathroom, slightly more panicked.

not there...

he scrambled out of the room, "s-sungie?" he called out.

still no response...

"n-no please no" minho was at the brim of tears. it felt like a deja vu all over again.

he stumbled into the living room, still not a sight of jisung.

"a-ah! ouch! haaaaaa, water water water!"

kitchen!

minho ran. he ran towards the kitchen only to finally see the male he was looking for. jisung had his hand under cold running water.

"ji-jisung!" the alpha called out. "oh- good morning mi-" before the omega could finish his greeting, minho engulfed him in a hug.

the younger thought it was cute, probably worried over his accidentally burned hand. he was about to reassure minho when he felt his shoulder getting wet.

"m-min?" jisung was confused.

"i-i thought i lost you too. i thought they took you away!" he cried. more like sobbing.

"hyung? what happened?" jisung carefully turned off the water once he felt his finger slightly numbed and the pain was gone. he carefully wiped his hand dry and brought the distressed alpha to one of the seats in the dining area in the kitchen.

"seat down hyung"

but minho shook his head. he felt that if he let go of the omega, he'll disappear again.

"hyung, seat down please" jisung carefully pulled himself out of minho's death grip and lightly push him to seat on the chair he had pulled out. in response, minho pulled jisung to his lap, hugging him tightly again, fixated on the omega before him and his lavender scent.

"hyung? what happened?" jisung whispered, slowly stroking the back of minho's head. unknowingly helping the alpha relax and calm down.

"i-i have- had. i had a girlfriend" minho started with a shaky breath. "it's been a few years- i- they took her away ji- she's gone... she- they-" jisung's heart broke as he watched his mate sob in his arms. he wasn't even a tad bit jealous because its rare to find your predestined mate nowadays.

the omega pushed the alpha's face nearer to his neck, hoping that his scent would calm minho down like how it did for him. which helped minho.

he's near...

he's here...

minho chanted it as he took deep breaths, inhaling his mate's scent. "i- we were together for coming to 4 years. b-but one day, s-she disappeared. o-our enemy sent her a letter, f-forcing her to meet them and threatening that her brother would die if she didn't come alone... i-i couldn't save her ji... they died trying to escape ji..." minho broke down, "i-it w-was m-y fault!" he sobbed

"min... i'm sure it isn't your fault. and i'm sure she doesn't blame you min..." jisung rubbed the alpha's back, trying to comfort him and calm him down. "i'm sure she knew that you were looking for her and that you might have gotten hurt trying to save her. so she probably tried to escape to save you too min..."

"h-how would you know?!" he shakily raised his voice. he didn't mean it. but he didn't want to believe jisung that it isn't his fault.

"because that's what i'd do too. if you saving me would hurt you, i'd rather try to escape to get to you, or i'll die to keep you alive. and i won't ever blame you for my death." jisung truthfully explained.

"she must have been a beautiful girl huh?" jisung smiled, slightly jealous but he was happy that she was once there for him. "yeah she was..." minho give a sad smile, his eyes still puffy from the storm of tears that poured out.

"i-i'm sorry. i probably looked weak an-"

"no! you are allowed to cry. you are allowed to grieve. you are allowed to feel emotions and break down and feel weak and dejected at times. but you are never ever weak. you are strong hyung. you're going to be the next heir of the second strongest clan, and also the second in command to a strong mafia group." jisung huffed.

"i'm still sec-"

"do i look like the first to you? coming from the blessed family of the hans? do i look oh so godly strong? i'm weaker compared to my family and that doesn't push me down. i was abused growing up and almost got sold to a sex trafficker, yet i'm standing here scolding you for thinking that you're weak just because you probably weren't allowed to grieve properly."

and jisung was right. he was taught since young that alphas can't cry. they can never show their weakness nor can they be 'weak'. this was probably the first time that minho panicked, and cried in front of anyone. yet he still accepted him, comforted him, and told him that it was okay.

"thank you, baby...i'm so sorry" minho calmed down, still hugging jisung, taking in his lavender scent.

"shall we eat breakfast?" jisung asked, getting off minho's lap, holding his hand, and leading them to the now-cold scrambled eggs and bacon.

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i feel bad for making minho suffer (not)

what's my book without trauma 🤧🤧

also, half of what i write is my reality and my maladaptive daydreaming 👀