Stages of Grief | Noctyx

Anger

Alban Knox

"Do you have someone you like?"

I do, actually, but I know damn well it doesn't just stop to that. It wasn't just mere adoration, it was love. And, it still is.

That love wasn't like any other love I felt. It was deep, real passionate feelings. The feeling that made me happy, but also caused me a severe downfall I do not want to feel, ever again.

How do I say this? Well, I see him as a man, he sees me as his younger brother. I love him as my man, he loves me the way brothers do. I found him rather ethereal, he found me simply adorable.

I wanted him, he didn't want me, at all.

Instead, he desires Uki, my best friend. Whom, of all people, the one who knew what I felt towards him. Who knew every plan I made for the two of us. Every daydream I've visualised about the two of us. Everything I've held in my heart.

But what did he do? He betrayed me.

I was supposed to confess that day, but I saw them kissing. I saw how much of a traitor he was.

Funny thing was he told me that he loved Fuu-chan. He told me he loved Fuu-chan. But he decided to date the man I love. I know I don't have the right to feel jealous towards the both of them, but I can't help it.

I am so dumb I actually believed he loved Fuu-chan.

I can't help but loathe every single part of him.