Maps ~ 5SOS

Chapter 26

Lillian POV

~ 1 month later~

Today I was expecting my death.

I didn't want to die. I just knew I would. I had been told by my own doctor.

My baby was a month old and I hope she doesn't go, but there's no chance of my baby being alive. I wish I could turn back time to the good old days, were I first met Luke by tripping up on that suitcase and starting all over again.

"Lilly" Luke groaned into my neck making me smile as I turned around to face him. "this is beautiful" Luke added.

"I agree" I said looking out of the window to see our baby's crawling with Ashton and Calum.

Luke held me tightly and kissed my neck whilst Michael walked into the kitchen and his jaw dropped, he looked horrified.

"PDA" He screamed and ran out as I chuckled.

"Tour starts soon" Luke murmured against my neck as I sighed, I walked out of the kitchen and ran up the stairs slamming our bedroom door and let tears roll down my cheeks as I crashed onto the bed.

"Baby tell me" Luke said as I turned around frowning at him.

"No" I shouted.

"FUCKING TELL ME IM SICK OF THIS" Luke shouted picking me up and slamming me against the wall.

I groaned in pain as I looked into his eyes and they were full of anger and his face tensed up by the second.

I shook my head crying in pain.

"Well fuck this, fuck you and fuck the kids! All you do is seem to cry and care about yourself you self centred whore! You fucked with my brain! JUST DIE NOW" He said and shouted at the end making me faint but as soon as I almost hit the ground I woke up gasping for air.

It was a dream.

Luke flicked on the light and grabbed my injection and injected the fluid into me making me calm again.

"Lillian you okay?" He panicked as I nodded a little shocked and moved away from his touch.

"I just want to sleep" I said holding back tears and sliding back under the covers.

He turned the light off and kissed my head as I wanted to burst out crying right there and then.

"I love you" He said, but you know what hurt the most...

I didn't have the courage to say it back.

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Michael POV

Lillian had been distant all day she would usually feed the twins upstairs and play with them and also put them to sleep, but as soon as she does that she says nothing to all of us and walks out the front door.

Luke has been miserable all day because of Lillian and I feel sorry for him, maybe it's her mood swings.

"Is it anything I've said?" Luke said his head in his hands.

"No Luke you haven't done anything" I said reassuring him as he groaned.

She hadn't been back for an hour now and I was worried, she my little sister and I care for her so much.

"That's it" Luke said standing up. "I'm going to find her" he said storming out of the room as I followed.

"I'll come with you" I said. "Calum and Ashton look after the twins" I said as they agreed whilst me and Luke hurried and climbed into his car.

He drove to the park, cafe, beach, shopping centre and she wasn't there. we decided to hospital to see if she went there for the baby's sake and there she was sitting on the wall and crying.

Luke immediately stopped the car jumping out and running across the road to her hugging her tightly.

I watched them talk and Lillian didn't seem like Lillian...she was scared, she look terrified of Luke, almost as if he was gonna beat her up.

Luke POV

"Lillian talk to me" I said cupping her face and kissing her nose as she close her eyes as I whipped the tears away.

"You don't want me" she spoke softly but broken.

"Of course I do! Why wouldn't I?" I asked, kissing her all over, I love this girl I'd do anything for her.

"I'm self centred, I fuck around with your brain!" She shouted crying as I grew worried, I wonder if this was why she wouldn't talk to me last night, because she had a bad dream about me.

"No your not Lillian your not even close, don't tell me about his dream, just know it's not true I wouldn't do anything or say anything to hurt you, I'm so I love with you" I said kissing her lips over and over again as she finally kissed back.

"Let's go home and look after you, we will watch some films and play games with everyone" I said soothing her because she already stressed enough.

"I love you Luke" she said as I smiled kissing her forehead and pulling her into a tight hug because god I love her hugs.

Lillian didn't die, everyone was completely wrong it was well over a month and nothing happened

It's a blessed miracle for keeping my Lillian alive and my new baby. Let's hope it stays this way forever...