Love and Darkness

Chapter 3

The chemistry teacher went on for a few more minutes answering a couple of questions coming from the crowd of students, and once all of them were answered, he let us meet up with our partners. I was wondering whether to move to Sienna but instead she answered my question and came to me.

"Hey!" She said to me as she took a seat next to me.

"Hi." I simply replied.

"So," She said, "we have to choose a molecule for this project, and I want to know what element you think we should choose before I tell you mine."

"Uhm." I paused, and turned my head to see the teacher handing out periodic tables.

"I'll see the periodic table first, then I'll let you know my decision." I whispered.

The chemistry teacher finally came to us and handed us the paper. It had all the possible elements that we were allowed to choose. There was a challenge though, we couldn't choose the same element as another group, so we had to be fast with our decision.

"Why don't we do hydrogen?" I asked Sienna.

She nodded at me and said, "you probably won't believe me, but that is what I was thinking, too."

She added while gleaming at me, "great minds think alike."

I mentally facepalmed, "never say something cringe like that again."

"I told you this earlier, you don't have to be so low-profile when you're around me, whatever reason you have behind all of this is safe with me." She said to me, with a serious look.

I stopped what I was doing, which was reading all the elements of the periodic table, and looked at her. Me, trust her? Yeah right, I know not to never trust other people, no matter how long you've known them for, even if they are your own blood, I know to never, ever, fall for that same mistake.

"As if." I whispered in a rude tone.

I then realized where this topic was leading to, so I quickly had to change the topic and atmosphere of the conversation.

It was too late though. Everything was coming back, I was trying to hide it in front of this chick and I was able to, but barely. The memories, the moment, how fast it happened, how I am still alive somehow, how they did that to them but they couldn't to me.

I was reliving the memories for a second, until Sienna snapped her fingers in front of my face.

"Green?" Was all she said, frowning a little bit.

"Let's just.." I paused, with a little bit of shakiness in my voice, "just tell the teacher what element we chose. I'm going to stay here for a bit." I finished.

"Okay." She said to me, I was able to sense a little bit of worry in her voice after she said that to me, and so she got up from the chair and went to the teacher to tell her about our decision.

While she went up, I fell into a deep thought regarding what Sienna just told me.

I wish I could trust her, but I never want to go through the pain I did a year back, getting attached to everyone, just for them to leave me in the dust and ghost me, ultimately leaving me to the state I am in currently.

I also wouldn't want to trust someone that I had just met on the first day of school. I would only get attached and that would just hold me back and pain me in the long run.

The pain hurts much more when it's your friends from elementary school, and it hurts even more when you can't do anything about losing the ones that share your blood.

It kills me every time.

It really does.

I put my head down on the desk, doing my best to hold my emotion in, I then remembered the setting as I was in, and the state I was in, and quickly looked up with my normal expression, I could see Sienna walking back to me.