Comfortable. ~Christopher Sturniolo~

08. im over it

it's been about 10 minutes since i saw the text that made my stomach sink.

i've been sitting on the bathroom floor crying wondering what i've done wrong.

was i not pretty enough? was i not his type? did i have a bad personality.

so many thoughts are going through my head. it sucks. i didn't think chris would be the type of guy to do this.

i even told him about my past with jack...

i may be a little dramatic for crying over a guy i'm not dating but my feelings are really hurt.

i liked him, a lot.

i stand up and look in the mirror trying to figure out what's wrong with me. i look and all i see is a mess.

i look drained. im over it. im over feeling like this. im over always being the second choice. i'm over everything.

*knock knock knock*

i hear a knock at the door, "y/n you okay in there?" i hear nick ask.

i quickly wipe my tears off my face and open the door a bit.

"im okay" i say with a small smile. nick can read me like a book. he knows when somethings up.

he slightly pushes me out of the way and comes into the bathroom and shuts the door behind him.

"don't lie, i know your not okay. you've been crying, i heard you while i was debating on knocking on the door" nick admits.

i take a deep breathe and tell nick everything "chris has been acting different with me and i noticed it when we got to your house. and then- then i saw a girl text him named sadie. she said hey babe"

"what the fuck. who the fuck is sadie?" nick asked with a confused look on his face. "and why the fuck is some other girl calling chris babe" nick said throwing his hands up.

"i don't know but i thought he really liked me?" i said looking down fidgeting with my fingers.

"come here, everything will be okay" nick says pulling me into a tight hug.

"love you nick" i say as i pull away from the hug.

"love you" he says as he grabs my hand to walk out of the bathroom.

"wait! i can't go back in there and act like everything is normal" i say pulling nick back into the bathroom.

nick looks at me and says "oh we're not, we're gonna go find out who the fuck sadie is"

i don't think this is a good idea. im glad nick is standing up for me but what if chris gets mad at me?

you know what, who cares. im not gonna waste any more of my time trying to get to know someone who doesn't feel the same.

we reach the living room and it's awkward on my part. i feel weird almost as if i shouldn't be here anymore.

"what's wrong y/n? you look like you've been crying" chris says looking over at me.

nick looks at me and i nod my head yes.

nick begins to speak "so Christopher, care to explain who the fuck sadie is?"

nick says while crossing his arms.

i see matt have a very confused look on his face "what's going on" matt asks

chris stands up and walks over to me "can we talk about this in private?" he says

"no whatever you have to say i'm sure enough you can say it infront of your brothers." i reply.

he sighs and grabs my hand.

"chris please don't touch me right now" i say wiggling my hand out of his grip.

"guys what is going on" matt asks again standing up walking over to the rest of us.

"chris is an asshole that's what's going on" nick says looking at chris with a angry look on his face

chris places his hands on his forehead and shakes his head "nick just stay the fuck out of this, you don't even know what happened." chris yells

i can see nick getting more angry by his body language and the expressions on his face.

"WHAT I DO KNOW IS THAT IM THE ONE WHO WENT UP TO CHECK ON Y/N WHILE SHE WAS CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU CHRIS" nick snaps.

i can feel the tears start to well up in my eyes. i can't hold them back even if i tried.

tears falling down my face.

"i can't do this, im going home" i say picking up my stuff from the couch and starting to walk out the door.

"i'll drive you" matt offers and i nod.

"i'll come with so we can sort this out" chris says starting to walk in the direction matt and i are going.

i turn around and shake my head "im sorry but you are the last person i want to see right now" i say walking out the door.

matt unlocks his car and we get in and buckle up.

"are you okay, don't bullshit me y/n" matt says putting the keys into the car.

"everything will be okay. i'll be okay." i reply with a soft smile that matt returns back.

we drove to my house in silence. it wasn't an awkward silence it was a nice one where we both knew we had each other.

i was fidgeting with my fingers. my anxiety is so bad right now. i feel like i have a pit in my stomach and my mind is just over thinking.

matt notices and takes my hand to try and calm me down. matt always understands me. he knows what it's like to constantly have this feeling eating away at you.

we arrive to my house and matt pulls into my drive way. he lets go of my hand.

"text me if you need anything. im here" he says making sure i know i'm not alone.

"i will, thank you matt." i say grabbing my things

"no need to say thank you." he says with a smile

"love you matt"

"love you"

i shut the car door and walk up my steps. matt stays in the driveway and makes sure i get in the house safely.

once i get into my house i hear the van pull out of the driveway. i drop my things and go straight to my room.

i just lay in my bed feeling sad.

i hear my phone continuously going off so i pick it up.

                                         chris 💓

- chris 💓
im sorry please let me explain.
y/n?
please answer me.
im so sorry.
it's not what you think i swear.
just let me explain please.

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i can't believe he's texting me right now. it didn't seem like he wanted to explain that bad when i was right infront of him. if it wasn't what it seemed like why couldn't he just say it infront of his brothers.

im so angry with him but not only him but myself for falling for this shit again. im always a second choice.

i should let him explain because that would be the mature thing to do. but- but i can't. i need time to think.

maybe in the morning.

for right now, im over it.

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