Comfortable. ~Christopher Sturniolo~

09. trust.

i woke up trying to put myself back to sleep but there was no luck. i had a horrible sleep last night.

my bed was perfectly made and when i woke up one blanket was on the floor. i tossed and turned all night long.

as soon as i woke up i felt the feeling in my stomach again.

i don't know how long i can continue being mad. i just want answers.

chris is willing to explain to me what happened but i'm finding it difficult to bring myself to let him in again.

i want to trust him.

i decided i was going to text him after ignoring his messages and calls.

chris 💓

today 10:41 am

hey, gm

- chris 💓
come on y/n don't "gm" me spell it out

pls don't push it. i'm ready to talk if you are

- chris 💓
can i come over? i want to talk in person

okay, i'll leave the door unlocked

READ.

the conversation i've been avoiding is about to happen.

i really hope this was all a misunderstanding. i don't think chris would do this to me after he knows what i've been through.

he has a kind heart. i just need to trust him.

i sigh as i climb out of bed and head to the bathroom. i use the bathroom and wash my hands and face.

i brush my teeth and my hair and put on deodorant.

i'm not even going to bother changing out of my pjs, chris wouldn't mind anyways.

that's one thing i like about him. he doesn't care or judge the way i look.

he thinks i'm beautiful even on the days i feel the worst.

i climb back on my bed and go on my phone and wait for chris to get here.

soon after i hear my front door open and my anxiety starts flying through the roof.

i'm so nervous. what if he was just gonna say he didn't want to continue moving forward with me.

what if he doesn't feel the same anymore. i'm terrified.

i hear him walking up the steps.

he knocks on my door.

"come in" i say sitting up. he's still in his pjs too. he looks so handsome without him even trying.

"hey" chris says closing the door behind him and walking towards my bed.

chris sits down and looks at me. i can see the sad expression on his face. he looks like he hasn't gotten any sleep.

"you look tired, did you sleep last night?" i ask

chris shakes his head. "not really, i found it hard to fall asleep" he says looking down playing with the strings of his pjs.