YOU

9

Three months later and it was the day I was leaving to go on tour. Ember and I had been preparing for this. I was sure we'd be fine, but that didn't make leaving her any easier.

"I'm going to miss you" She said from my bed as I shoved clothes into my suitcase.

"I'm going to miss you too." I said standing up and sitting next to her on my bed. "I don't sleep when you're not in bed with me. It feels too empty." I said frowning.

"You'll figure it out, Hannie" She said smiling at me, but it didn't reach her eyes like it usually does.

"I know, but I don't want to have to." I said kicking my suitcase. Usually, I loved going on tour. I loved being in a bunch of different places, but this time. I wanted to be anywhere she was and that was Korea.

I heard a knock on my door and Changbin stuck his head in, "Please tell me you guys have clothes on" He said with a hand over his eyes.

"Seriously?" I said telling him we were dressed.

"Ah, ok cool" He said opening his eyes. "Chan said we're leaving in thirty minutes. The car will be here to take us to the airport."

"Ok." I said sadly and looked back at Ember as Binnie closed the door. "I wish you could come to the airport with me." I pouted.

"Me too." She said sadly as I closed up my suitcase. I had shoved every single last bit of things I could possibly need into it and now it was refusing to close easily. In fact we both had to sit on try to zip it.

"Honestly, Hannie, I don't think you packed enough." She said sarcastically as we both finally got it zipped.

"Me either" I said honestly thinking about what else I might need.

"That was a joke. You packed too much, dude." She joked.

"Oh" I said still in thought over making sure I got all my chargers and enough clothes. "My laptop!" I yelled realizing I'd forgotten one of the most important things...besides underwear of course.

"LET'S GO!" I heard Chan yell from the living room as I grabbed my laptop and shoved it into my carry-on.

Ember jumped slightly from the sudden loud noise and looked at me sadly. I walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her while she kept her arms down at her sides and laid her head down on my chest.

"It's ok, Em. I'll be back before you know it. We lived for years in separate countries. We can do a couple months, ok?"

I felt her nod her head as she half heartedly put her hands on my hips. "Come back in one piece ok?" She asked muffled.

"I promise. I won't lose a limb while I'm gone" I joked. She looked up at me with tears in her eyes and I pulled in her for the last kiss I was gonna get for the next couple months. God, I was going to miss her. I'd never gone on tour while dating anyone and this was a whole new experience for me, for both of us. Especially since it was her, and how much I loved her.

"I love you." She sniffed wiping a tear off of her face.

"I love you" I whispered to her kissing her one more time before I grabbed my bag and left the apartment following the rest of the guys. Ember had wanted to stay upstairs, she didn't want to watch us drive away. I could understand why. She was trying to make it feel like we were just going to practice or to get food.

***
I had been talking myself into believing this wouldn't be that hard for months, but it was so much harder then I thought. I thought about her every second of every day while I was gone. I didn't sleep well most nights, but the best part of any day was when I got to facetime her or call her. I loved hearing her voice.