YOU

11

The next morning I woke up alone. Which really only happened on days she was working, today was Saturday though. I sat up and looked around my room in the early daylight. Hoping she'd somehow appear, but she must've gone home. It only made my jealousy resurface. She stayed up talking to Chan and then went home?

Why did I feel like this? She and Chan talk like that all the time. He's like a brother to her. There was never anything romantic there. I knew that. Chan wouldn't do that to me, he knows how I feel about her. So why the hell did I want to suddenly yell at him? Why did I feel like I wanted to punch him in the face?

"Calm down, Jisung. You're overthinking" I whispered to myself as I picked up my phone and texted her.

HJ: Where'd you go last night?
E: I came home.
HJ: Obviously, but why? I waited for you...
E: I didn't want to wake you up, Hannie.
HJ: I'm so cooollllddd, I need you here. :(
E: It's April. lol
HJ: And? I wanted you here with me...I'm sad.
E: I'm sorry, I'll come over tonight and make up for it, ok? I just had a lot of stuff to around my apartment. I've been neglecting it.
HJ: Oh fine. I miss you.
E: I miss you too. I'll see you later, ok?

I put my phone down and threw myself back on the bed in frustration. She hates cleaning. She'd rather clean? She went home last night so she can clean her apartment? And since when did she care about waking me up? She usually comes in and just curls up to me and goes to sleep.

Still in my own thoughts I went into the kitchen and sat at the dining room table with my legs crossed underneath me, and my hands in my lap. I was staring into nothingness when Chan came out into the kitchen ready for the gym.

"Hey" He mumbled as he opened the fridge. Annoyance prickled at my senses and I tried to push it away. I tried to tell myself I was being stupid. There was no reason to feel like this. She'd had long talks with Chan before. This is nothing new. Let it go, Jisung.

"Mm" I mumbled still staring off into the distance.

"What's wrong with you? You look like shit" He said waving a hand in front of my face.

"Nothing" I said standing up and ignoring him.

"Ok. Well I'll be at the gym if you need me.....ok?"

"MmHm" I said now standing in front of the coffee maker watching intently as it made the hot brown liquid and poured it into my cup.

"Bye?" Chan said confused.

"Bye" I mumbled taking the coffee in my room and walking straight past him.

***

It's been a week. A bad week. A week of my anxiety getting the better of me and making me feel like something is going on with Chan and Ember. She hadn't slept in my bed in a since that night. She keeps saying she has things she's doing, but why all of a sudden does that mean not sleeping in the same bed as me. I missed her, she felt so far away. Pulling my phone of my charger I texted her.

HJ: Did I do something wrong?

I watched as the three little dots popped up that she was typing and then they went away and it just said 'read'. My heart dropped into my stomach. I waited another ten minutes before I texted her again.

HJ: Honestly, Em. If I did something, let me fix it. I miss you.

Still no answer. The little dots didn't pop up this time. It just said 'read'.

HJ: Please answer me. I can see that you're reading these. Please. I can fix it.

I threw my phone down on my bed and crossed my arms trying not to let it bother me. I knew Chan didn't come home last night.