L.A. For You

Chapter 27: October

Anna's POV: Tour with Little Mix has been incredible. Literally, a dream comes true. However, this tour has worn me out. I have not gotten the best sleep. Little Mix is full of music videos, radio interviews, concerts, and morning television shows. When we usually do have downtime, it is usually only a few hours. Thank goodness the tour will be done next month. I will finally be able to edit tour vlogs and put out some content. The only content I have been putting out is TikTok videos, which is not great, but it is something. It has been my greatest pleasure to accompany these girls on tour. Grayson and I have been texting a lot since last month, however, this month he has been kind of distant. Not going to lie, I have been distant as well with everything going on with the girl's tour. Well, at least he has not totally ghosted me all together. This month has just been THE month of seasonal depression. I just do not feel like myself and this whole tour routine. Let's not call it a routine, because there is no structure to this tour. I wake up, there's a different event happening each day. Why did I think I could manage a big girl group like this? I so badly want to quit, but I just cannot. They're paying me so much to do this tour and I kind of need the money after spending all my money moving to Los Angeles. I hope moving to Los Angeles was not a waste of my time. I could have moved anywhere, but I chose California out of all states. I have heard a lot of influencers say, "Los Angeles is not all that", I hope they are wrong, but I cannot speak from other people's experiences. I wonder if things would have been different if I had chosen a different state, like I don't know Florida. I would've never met the Dolan Twins or Joshua Bassett. I met Karl Jacobs once, but I doubt he even remembers that interaction, and it was literally embarrassing too. Everything is going to be alright, this month is finally over.