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( karls pov )

fucking hell, another day of school.

I'm karl, Im a high schooler from year 11 and I live in London, I like to read and journal.

I get up from my bed, getting my phone as I went to the bathroom.

I stare at myself, I looked ugly.

I had chubby cheeks, thick thighs,and freckles,I hate myself, so much.

I sigh as I get into the shower, putting it into the hottest mode cause I, needed a hug and this is the closest I'll get to it.

after I showered, I got into my room and wore a hoodie and some pants, I always had a feminine side, I'd like to try it but do I even have the guts to do it?, No I don't even have the guts to live.

I packed my school bag up, and went on my way, I never had friends, ive had one, just one, his name was 'foolish' he was my bestfriend, but he moved to the united states when we were just 5, and I never heard from him again.

tears started filling my eyes just thinking about him,. I wipe away my tears and walked faster, it was about 7:00 am and school started in 2 hours, I just like to read so I go early.

I arrived, I was looking around for people, but thank god as usual there weren't any.

I went onto the library getting greeted from the librarian "good morning karl, how was your morning sweet heart?" she asked, she was kind of like my mom as she was more, caring I guess and doesn't harm me.

"good thank you, how about you?" I ask nicely, "good too, now now I'm not gonna disturb your reading session, you can go read now" she says with a soft smile, I smile back.

I was walking over to a place that janet, the librarian made for me, she made a room with book shelves for me to hide in, I walked pass a boy and I noticed him, looking at me?

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